who's going to stop it?

493.

2011-11-27T22:28:00.002+08:00

I stayed home today, did school work, ate and continued with more school work. Honestly, I'm not feeling well. I think my stomach flu is back? It hurts like *toot* lah, please. I've got nothing else to say tonight. I'm gonna continue with Logotypes assignment and hope some genius logo idea will pop up in my head. Wish me luck. Oyasuminasai.

"You wouldn’t be able to reach me even if you wanted to slap me.
Put your hand down, don’t cry and just move to the side.
Okay, fine. Should I dance?
Okay, got it. Should I rap?
Okay, good choice, girl. Should it be Rock?"
- Kim Heechul

fiction,
lily ween.

492.

2011-11-26T20:00:00.010+08:00

Yes, I've finally changed my blogskin and playlist. :D

Haven't been able to blog for the past few days because I was busy with school, of course - and I was feeling very ill throughout the week. I'm afraid there's something wrong with me. Hopefully there's nothing wrong though. If it gets worse, I might have to go to the doctor. :/

Yesterday, I finally found some time to relax with Xiu Bin. We went to watch Happy Feet 2 at AMK Hub after school, played tons of arcade games and even took neoprints. ^^

I had fun taking this, really. It felt like I went back to secondary school days. XD

And I bought this USB fan. :D
My room feels warmer these days. No idea why. :/
It's exactly like the one Mimi has back in Chartis. Hehe.

The laser cut I designed for Production Technology.
Might have to redo because I think I can do better than this? I don't know.
Thanks to Bjorn who helped me with the laser cutting! :D

"I believed it was like a headache,
rest it off for a night and all would be well.
Everything would be fresh like a morning after rain.
I prayed that the dusts of quarrels would be swept away."
- Mithra (Epik High)

jar of hearts,
lily ween.

491.

2011-11-19T23:56:00.005+08:00

Although it's Saturday, I went to school to meet up with my group-mates for discussion and write our 20 pages report for Communication Skills - which is not even done yet. It's seriously taking a lot of time, and I wonder if she'll actually read through the whole class's 20 pages report. I think 20 pages is too much, really. 10 pages should be enough, no? Not complaining or anything like that. :)

We all ended discussion at 7PM. Carina, Xiu Bin and I left for Nex - to play arcade. :D One of the best place to 'de-stress', in my opinion. I lost Bishi Bashi to Xiu Bin - again. Played Time Crisis 4 and this new racing game, I don't know what it's called. Had dinner at Torigo, a 'Japanese ~~fast~~ food restaurant' - which tasted very local and not Japanese at all, with extremely bad customer service.

Today was extremely fun. Although there are piles of work left undone, I had fun and laughed a lot. I laughed a lot, alright - but I probably laughed too much. They say, if you laugh too much, something bad might happen. I've never believed in those. I've always believed people should be allowed to laugh all they want, without caring about what's going to happen next. Something like, 'living the moment'? But today, I'm thinking twice - that it might actually be true: that if you laugh too much, something bad might happen?

Previously, close friends told me that no matter what happens, I should share. It'll ease the pain of feeling alone, somehow. I tried to talk about it with a close friend of mine whom I've known since my secondary school days just now. I really wanted to share it with him, because I thought he'd listen and help me calm down from this chaos. But before I could even start, tons of thoughts went through my head - and I couldn't even utter a word about it. This pathetic feeling of bothering someone about something so pointless to that person - I don't wanna do that, really.

I'll smile again tomorrow. I'll laugh again tomorrow. But for tonight, let me hold it all in. Tomorrow will be a better day - I'll make it a better one.

"A bitter day.
It will all be erased like this - I will forget someday.
I’ll be able to laugh then, but right now I can’t do anything about it.
I can’t do anything."
- G.Na

home,
lily ween.

490.

2011-11-18T13:42:00.002+08:00

School work have been taking up a lot of time, and I barely have the time to do anything else. I finally got my rest yesterday and spent my evening watching Protect The Boss. But still, I felt super guilty. This weekend is going to be jam packed with school assignments - I think I'll die soon, really.

And as I'm blogging, this old woman named Su Ei Myat, is trying to mess up my blog entry! Haha! Irritating old womannnn! XD

Minna, sayonara. :D

xoxo,
lily ween.

489.

2011-11-15T00:33:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging because I wasn't in Singapore these past few days. Went somewhere pretty far from here. I'm not gonna state where I went because I think I'll get into big trouble? I don't know. Better be safe than sorry. Heh.

Anyway, wherever I went was kinda nice, I guess? Mainly because I was with my family and didn't care much about school work and such. I was able to relax and wind down a little bit - probably because we went to my favourite place on Earth on Sunday. :D But I still felt guilty for neglecting school work. Okay, fine. Whatever. I enjoyed myself, I think that's what matters.

Sunday night was a memorable one because throughout my journey home, I saw some of the most beautiful lightning ever. It was raining so heavily - a little scary, I must say - but the lightning was simply beautiful. Really.

So back to reality, I should be doing concepts for Studio Project now. Another sleepless night? I miss sleeping, honestly. Who's with me?

"Fun times - sometimes you don't realize they are fun until much later."
- Kotani Nobuko (Nobuta wo Produce)

beautiful target,
lily ween.

488.

2011-11-10T01:08:00.002+08:00

With only 2 1/2 hours of sleep, I woke up and went to school. Honestly, I spent my whole day feeling half-dead because I was too tired. Packaging was normal. Surfed the net, did research, GMarket-ed and had a discussion with Su, Carina and Xiu Bin for Communication Skills - and I head home as soon as class ended.

When I reached home, I found out that the bracelets and T-shirts I ordered on GMarket arrived. The school bag I ordered is already in Singapore, so it should arrive pretty soon, I guess? Can't wait! :D

With that, I had lunch, showered and took a 4 hours nap. I'm still tired though, I have no idea why. :(

And today, I found out that one of my favourite tumblr closed down. Like... :'( No words could express how horribly sad I am - I really am. I've made it a routine - no, maybe a habit - to actually visit the tumblr everyday. But now it's closed down.

The tumblr which gave me happiness.
The tumblr which gave me strength.
The tumblr which gave me hope.
It closed down. :(

"I’m growing up, but this is the place I’m going to remain in."
- Zico

say my name,
lily ween.

487.

2011-11-08T22:29:00.003+08:00

This morning didn't go so well because I was late for school - all because of the bad diarrhea I had. I hate how I always get diarrhea on important submission days. To make things worse, it was raining like cats and dogs. I had to wait 30 minutes in the rain until I got a cab to go school. Like as if standing in the rain wasn't sad enough, I was charged $20 for my trip to school. My money... All gone. :'(

Nothing happened during VI, really. I only remember displaying my group's presentation boards on the table and we were told to go for our break - which lasted till 12PM. I had lunch at Koufu with Su, Carina, Xiu Bin, Xin Yi and Liang Ying. At 1PM, we left for our GSM - and I didn't do much today because I've already completed my jewellery-making last week. Ended up surfing GMarket with Liang Ying and Xiu Bin.

And now, I'm stuck with moodboard for Packaging. I know what I'm supposed to do, but I have no idea how am I supposed to arrange it all in the moodboard. Oh. My. God. Really. Someone save me already.

Overall, I guess today went alright. Throughout the day, I received encouraging text messages from old friends - and it made me really happy. From the bottom of my heart, thank you all. :)

"Time, please stop for a bit. I can’t think of anything."
- INFINITE's L

airbag,
lily ween.

486.

2011-11-07T20:23:00.003+08:00

It has been months since I last blogged and today, I finally realised how important my blog is to me. Before, when I used to update my blog every single day, I was someone who knew how to control my emotions. But ever since I stopped blogging because of school, I turned into this monster who gets easily angry, upset and sad. To be honest, I find myself ridiculous and I'm disgusted by this 'new' me. It's just... rubbish, really.

But that is what happens when you keep things bottled up for too long. You become your worse enemy. It's true. I've been bottling things up for so long in this weak heart of mine - not even writing in my personal diary and look what I've become. This messed up person who have no memories of anything good - only anger, hatred and sadness. I feel sad for myself.

No, this isn't another one of my emo-shit posts. I've grown up from that age, trust me.

Today, I realised I made a huge mistake. Actually, no. I realised I have been making mistakes for so long but only I didn't notice it. I understand that people have a limit about things, and this is probably that person's limit. Maybe Surbhi was right. That person will eventually get tired of my mistakes and that the day will come when I'll be left alone. She also told me that being alone is scary.

And I felt alone for the very first time today. Nope, not that "I've-got-no-friends" or whatever type of 'alone'. That lonely feeling when you feel like you've lost everything and you can never get them back no matter how hard you try. That lonely feeling when you know that no one else can help you get back on your feet except yourself. That lonely feeling which makes you want to clench your fists and cry your heart out.

I cried alright - in public. It's nothing to be proud of, honestly. It's something so horribly wrong because it shows that I can no longer control my emotions - and it's bad. I don't know why, but I know it's bad. That's why I'm turning to my blog - to help myself get back together, slowly and painfully. The day will come, I know.

In case nonsensical rumours start, I'd just like everyone to know that I'm not angry or upset with anyone. Nor did anyone did anything to make me feel like this. I'm upset, angry and disappointed with myself and only myself. No one else have anything to do with what's going on. And I've also gone past that age when I'd blame someone for something. So, really.

This time, it's just me. I'm having a war with myself.

I feel much better now. Thanks to everyone who sent me text messages, and thank you for reading.

"Crying is easy like breathing - the more you hold it in, the more you let out.
Inside this sadness that became my home, can I invite you in?"
- 'Home' by Tablo ft. Lee Sora

leave space empty,
lily ween.

485.

2011-08-18T02:23:00.003+08:00

I'm currently reformating my thumbdrive, so I have a bit of free time. I could've surfed the net, watched random videos - but I decided to blog instead. It's been months, really. Is there even anyone here?

Anyway, I've returned from Langkawi, obviously. The best short escape I've ever had with both my Aunts, cousins and Mommy. School obviously sucks. There were many sleepless nights, there still is - probably till next week? Hopefully, no more extension and they'll leave us alone for our holidays. I can't wait for the holidays, honestly.

And my thumbdrive just finished reformatting. I'm gonna go off now. Take care, everybody. See you in the near future. ^^

xoxo,
lily ween.

484.

2011-05-02T10:40:00.002+08:00

Woke up so early in the morning. At Changi Airport now. I won't be able to blog for the next few days. Gonna miss surfing the internet. On the other hand, there's tons of school work yet to complete. But what to do? It's an emergency. :] I hope I get back soon though.

Gonna miss my classmates - but not gonna miss school, I think? The great escape - let's go! :D

xoxo,
lily ween.

483.

2011-04-30T01:21:00.003+08:00

"For me, I ended up hating the same places and same things.
Doing whatever I want and how I want to,
I want show a side of me more than anybody knows.
My life belongs to me."
- 4Minute

School this week was alright. I had to force myself to stay awake just to complete various assignments. Was actually almost dozing off at school. But then again, I'm kinda used to it. So, whatever. :] Oh, and I'm happy that I got to play with clay this week. It was something new to me since this time, we used the wheel and all. Fun... and sort of 'stress-relief' in a way.

It was Friday a few hours ago and I had tons of fun with Carina, Su and Xiu Bin. Things were bad for Carina, but still, I hope she had fun with us. Lunch at Mad Jack, Polar egg tart for dessert, played arcade, and KFC for dinner. It was like Food Day for Xiu Bin and I. We kept eating and Su told us that, 'we have a hole in our stomach.' HAHA! Maybe she was right? XD Oh, and did I mention that Xiu Bin totally killed me twice when we played Bishi Bashi. Like... -_-" No fair, really.

Found out from Amy that my parents went shopping together. Hehe. :D And Daddy bought us hoodies~ ♥♥♥

Thanks, Daddy! :D
shampoo,
lily ween.

482.

2011-04-25T21:00:00.003+08:00

"I've spent all night long trying to figure out
what I've lost and what I've failed."
- Blessthefall

School was so I-don't-know-what-to-say today. For some reason, I feel so exhausted. It's like I've already used up all my energy for this week. Goodness. -_-"

Oh, on the other hand, Boy came to NYP today to get his letter - I'm not sure what's that called. I don't know when he's gonna start schooling at NYP, but nevertheless, good luck to you, noob! XD

Just a random photo we took. :]
Okay, back to schoolwork. Should I order McDonald's? :D

last one left,
lily ween.

481.

2011-04-24T16:04:00.004+08:00

"I don’t expect a lot from you, not like before."
- 4Minute

School re-opened last Monday - and it's no fun at all. Honestly, no fun at all. It's only the first week and there's already so many assignments to complete, so little time, so much pressure - it's tiring. The only fun I had was probably having lunch at Pizza Hut with Carina, Som, Su and Xiu Bin and the dinner I had with my family at Swensens.

Seafood Fiesta Baked Rice @ Pizza Hut on Thursday afternoon. :]
We had to rush back to school for Market Essential after that.

Daddy's steak @ Swensens on Thursday night.

My father - fierce, I know. :D

Amy and her baked rice. ♥

BBQ Chicken, anyone?
~~Tembam siol. XD~~

Earthquake!!! Hohoho~ ♥
Right, now back to schoolwork. But before that - I need my lunch. Byebye~! :]

heart to heart,
lily ween.

480.

2011-04-13T17:40:00.002+08:00

I think I need a new laptop, seriously. The one I'm currently using lags too much - I feel like it's almost dying. -_-"

Anyway, did you know? Did you know? Did you know? I met Hana recently. ^^ We had lunch at Arnold's and talked about all sort of things. Honestly, I miss my secondary school friends. They knew all about my ups and downs, they knew what I went through, they'd always give me encouragements, advices. They were sincerely there for me - and they still are now. :] Someone should go plan a class reunion, seriously! I'm bad at planning, that's why I'm asking. Heh. :D

School's starting next week. My timetable seems alright? There's no 9AM-9PM schedule, so I guess I'll be fine? But 6 hours of Studio Project in a day. o_O Not funny, really. I'll just hope for the best.

... Suddenly, I feel like going to Marine Parade and meet Kak Fathin, buy pretzels, buy a new schoolbag and go watch a movie with her or something. I miss her scent - it's weird, I know. That's family love, yo. ♥

barely legal,
lily ween.

479.

2011-04-02T21:10:00.004+08:00

"Why am I doing this?
While thinking about you -
la la la la la -
I could fly to the sky."
- IU

I apologise for not blogging. I was down with stomach flu a few days ago. Terrible, really. Thank goodness it was bearable.

Thursday, was such an awesome day. Boy asked me out so early in the morning, without telling me where we were going. During our journey, Boy said that we were going to USS - which I thought Boy was simply joking. And somehow, we ended up in Sentosa. :D

ASDFGHJKL! :D
You have no idea how excited and happy I was. Really, it was such an amazing surprise. No words can express how I was feeling. Thanks a lot, boy. :')

Godilocks~

The awesome fries. :D

Inside Shrek's castle. ^^

The Mummy ride entrance~ ♥

Oh, and we took Battlestar Galactica like 4 times that day. It's one of my favourite rides in USS - including The Mummy ride. :D But Battlestar Galactica kinda made me feel a little bit nauseous. Too fast? Haha. But still, ♥

We played at USS till 6+PM and left because we were too hungry and had dinner at Vivo City's Banquet. ^^ Walked around Vivo City and then headed for home because Mom called. :] Boy ahhh... Really, thank you. :D

marhsmallow,
lily ween.

478.

2011-03-28T21:32:00.002+08:00

"Your apologies - merely momentary.
Your pledges to change - merely momentary.
My heart hurts. You know it hurts and yet you repeat it all over again."
- 2AM

Been listening to a lot of 2AM songs - thanks to Xiu Bin. XD Haha! I'm hooked to I Did Wrong - and it's not funny how nice Seulong's voice is. Hee~ ^^

I haven't been updating because I was busy studying for my BTT - which I took today. Surprisingly, I passed with only a mistake. Just one more and I would've gotten all answers correct. Oh well, at least I passed. :D FTT's coming up next in May. Hopefully, I'll pass it in a go too.

By the way, I had a weird dream yesterday. Singapore snowed. ♥ Goodnight, everybody. It's TV time! :D

lightless,
lily ween.

477.

2011-03-26T01:49:00.003+08:00

"I thought that this was all only a nightmare.
I just want to wake up from this dream."
- F.T Island

It's 1:49AM and I'm not asleep yet. Hehe. ^^ Hm, I took my e-trial test yesterday. It went alright, I guess. The questions were much easier than I expected, really. Later in the evening, Mom, Amy and I had early dinner with BabySufiah and BabyIdlan at McDonald's. :D ♥ them loads.

break down,
lily ween.

476.

2011-03-23T22:34:00.002+08:00

"Tell me would you kill to save for a life?
Tell me would you kill to prove you're right?
Crash, crash, burn. Let it all burn.
This hurricane is chasing us all underground.

No matter how many deaths that I die, I will never forget.
No matter how many lifes I live, I will never regret.
There's a fire inside this heart and a riot about to explode into flames."
- 30 Seconds to Mars

Horrible day today. I met an amazing person who can take life out of you for the whole day. Someone who's capable of making you feel angry the whole day. It's insane, really. Oh, and today, I heard the most beautiful lie ever. It's fascinating - the extend people take to save their own skin. And it's a really, really awesome feeling when someone falls into their own trap which they set for someone else.

Even though I'm only eighteen, I know what it feels like to be prejudiced against. I know how it feels like to be discriminated. Wished you knew how much I suffered for a year. Go ahead, educate me about this and that. Just to let you know, I'm damn good when it comes to listening and have always scored well for my listening comprehensions. The lies, the excuses you tried to make up, all of that, it really won't do you any good at the end of the day. You see, you fell into your own trap just now - and you'll only fall deeper with every single lie. Eat this.

Oh, and by the way, enjoy the show you thought you produced. It's not gonna last long. :)

from yesterday,
lily ween.

475.

2011-03-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

"There’s no one like you; no other.
There’s no one like you; even if I look around it’s just like that.
Where else to look for?
A good person like you, with a good heart like you. A gift as great as you."
- Super Junior

Today, it feels like my misery finally came to a stop. Holding onto those emotions and keeping all of it inside me - it was horrible and I hated it. I met Boy today for lunch at Pizza Hut - his treat. :] Bought him pretzels and we bought movie tickets to watch I Am Number Four. Being his annoying self as usual, he kept whispering to me how hot the girl was. Like... -_-" However, I have to agree, No. 6 was pretty hot with the gun, knife and bike. Hee~ ^^

After the movie, we bought pretzels again and headed home. When I reached home, Mom told me stories about her workplace again. :/ Things seem to be getting out of hand there again, and I can't even help my own Mother. Of course, I want to go there and fight it off with her supervisor - but I don't want people to say that my parents don't teach me manners and respect. But you know, my parents always teach me to speak up for what's right. Lady, you really don't want to mess with me.

Oh, and results were out today. I have to say, I think I did slightly better this semester than the previous one. Slightly more As and Bs. There are still some Cs and Ds but still, my GPA improved by 0.16 - very little, I know. But you see, I told myself once that if I don't improve my GPA at all for this semester, I'd drop out from this course and enroll in another of my choice - so I guess I'm staying, huh? Year 2, I look forward to you. :]

no other,
lily ween.

474.

2011-03-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

"What more can I say? "Sorry... Sorry."
These repeated fights will be history once tomorrow comes around.
Making pathetic excuses; we can’t understand each other so we fight.
Every moment we’re wondering who’s fault is it? Tell me.
I don’t even know why I’m fighting with you.
Tell me what is right and what is wrong."
- Big Bang

I wasted another day watching dramas and movies - still no regrets. Hehe. ^^ Last night I realised that there's only 5 weeks(?) of school holidays left. I'm feeling rather sad, really. I'll miss school holidays. :(

Also, I realised that my BTT is next Monday! =O I've yet to memorise anything from the book. LOL! Nevertheless, I hope that I can pass it in one go. It'll make things easier for me. Haha.

I'm feeling slightly happier today. A little more alive. Nothing wrong with that, right? :]

lightless,
lily ween.

473.

2011-03-19T20:41:00.003+08:00

"I must have more tears than I thought. How could it be like this? I let you go while smiling then. I’m not like other girls - I can’t be too cunning like them. I can’t meet anyone else because I can only think of you. You don’t have to listen to my nagging anymore but you can’t become skinnier than you are now. Please make sure you eat.

What should I do? I keep missing you. I miss being in your arms already. I still like you. Why did we separate? Maybe you feel the same way I do, maybe you’re also crying. I hope you feel pain just like I do and come back to me again.

You must be living like nothing’s happened, I can understand that. In a way, that suits you better. We used to spend the night talking - those stories. You used to want to be with me always - that promise. I tried to erase them, but it’s not working well.

Foolishly, my tears keep on coming. Already, I want to go find you. You’re starting to forget me already so why can’t I do the same? No, you’re the same as me. Please tell me that’s the situation. Come back to me please, please come back. Stop hurting now. Just one day by my side."
- G.NA

That. That's really what I want to say to you right now. But will you reply? Say something, I just need to know that you're well. I'm worried and I can't stop worrying.

I didn't blog yesterday because I forgot to. Heh. ^^ I spent my whole day watching TV again. There's nothing to do, really. I'm enjoying my school holidays like this and I'm not missing school at all - AND I DON'T FEEL GUILTY ABOUT THAT! :D

Oh, have I ever mention that Big Bang is awesome?! I was never really a fan of Big Bang - probably except for "Haru Haru" and "Lies". If I recalled correctly, I was only a fan of T.O.P because he's hawt like that. :D But really, their latest album is ♥♥♥ Loving it a lot. :] Guess now I finally understand Yungsing. LOL!

3 friends in a row just twitted about McGrill and I have about enough. -_-" I'm gonna check the price online now and see if I have enough in my wallet. Hopefully I do 'cause I'm craving for anythingchicken.

tonight,
lily ween.

472.

2011-03-17T23:27:00.002+08:00

"I never wanted to admit it.
I never thought we were ending like this.
But I gotta say, I still love you. Come back.
I can't remember what I did today.
I was waiting for your call and I ended up doing nothing.
I really miss you and in my mind, I can still see images of you.
Those who doesn't know, smiles and asks how you are doing.
The word 'break up' is still unfamiliar so I couldn't say anything about it."
- BEAST

I've never been good at expressing myself. It has always been through song lyrics or English composition. Oh, how I miss English lessons - and Mrs. Doris Lee. On days like this, I wonder what am I doing in my course. Maybe I should just quit school and write an awesomeawesome book. I'm confident I can write well. Hehe ^^ And I don't even know where that confidence come from. -_-"

Today, I spent my day watching You Again and Goodbye, My Secret Friend. Somehow, Goodbye, My Secret Friend brought back old memories from when I was young. I'm not sure if this happens to all children - but I remember having an imaginary friend. I've forgotten her name and I've forgotten how she looked like too - but what I remember was, we'd always play house together. :]

On a side note, ZE:A's new song, "Here I Am" is currently on repeat. ♥

Oh, and things in Japan seems to be going pretty bad. Alia twitted that people are currently being evacuated. :/ #prayforjapan I really, really, really, hope from the bottom of my heart, things get better there - not because I'm a Jfan. But because it's all just too scary. :[ Earthquakes, tsunamis and now the nuclear problem. Ya Allah, lindungi lah kami semua.

again...,
lily ween.

471.

2011-03-16T21:57:00.003+08:00

"Let me talk about my...
When you turned away coldly, time seemed to stop for a moment.
Inside my blank mind; "I have to hold onto you. No, I have to let you go"
I can't forget you who's already forgotten and moved on.
I cried, "Let it be." ... I don't understand myself."
- Junhyung

I honestly don't think I can ever understand myself. I'm just making things complicated for myself, really. Currently, I'm watching Still, Marry Me on TV right now. Blogging from my phone. Today I simply spent my day watching We Got Married online. Nothing much happened, but I had a strong urge to bake eclaires and go roller blading - but it's been raining these past few days. :c

I've been eating lots of jelly today. It makes me happy. Hehe. Comfort food, comfort food~ :D

breath,
lily ween.

470.

2011-03-15T16:54:00.002+08:00

"Even my tears doesn't come out anymore.
I don't even have the strength to cry.
Isn't the weather really weird today?
On days like this, I feel like someone might come find me."
- IU

I woke up today feeling lonely. Something's missing and for the first in a long time, I know clearly what it is. I regretted what happened, I'm disappointed with myself. Truthfully speaking, I'm afraid thinking about what's going to happen next. Will I give in? Will I give up? What if I start hallucinating again and finally go insane like how I did once? How am I even supposed to face you?

Questions and more questions. I kept questioning myself today. Memories replay in my mind like an endless heart-aching movie. I need an escape badly. I hate being lonely - it makes me miserable. But... being miserable isn't really a bad thing. Being miserable reminds me that this is my reality, it reminds me that I'm human and that I'm still alive. That's a blessing. :] #prayforjapan - I hope things get better there. I'd volunteer with the rescue team if I could.

The sun will still rise tomorrow, life goes on. Tomorrow will be a better day - somehow. ... I hope. :]

the story only i didn't know,
lily ween.

469.

2011-03-15T00:32:00.003+08:00

Uhm, hi? It's been 4 months since I last updated. I don't even know if there's still anyone who comes here and read. Is there? Anyway, I didn't update because I was just too damn busy with school work, really. If not that, maybe I was just to lazy to blog - or too engrossed watching dramas during my school holidays.

A lot of things happened within 4 months. I grew a year older and a year wiser. Happy memories, sad memories, disappointed moments, angry days - there were a lot of those in 4 months. These 4 months were honestly very difficult for me and at the same time, they were very precious. What surprised me was, within those 4 months, not once have I ever regretted being alive. I always looked forward to 'tomorrow' because... I don't know. No specific reason. I just kept looking forward to 'tomorrow', and I kept counting the blessings that I have each day, and to put it simply - I was happy. And I still am - though I'm slightly troubled about some things. But yeah, shit happens to us sometimes. I'll be fine. :D

I'll blog more often now when I have the time to, really. 10 years down the road, I'm gonna walk down memory lane and read this blog all over again and probably just laugh at myself - because I'm awesome like that. ^^

going crazy,
lily ween.

468.

2010-11-12T22:30:00.015+08:00

I didn't update again, sorry. :(

TUESDAY, 9 NOVEMBER 2010

Studio project during school hours. Nothing much, really. After school, went to meet ♥ at Tampines to have lunch at Food Culture. Went to T1's rooftop, talked about things while eating donuts, walked around the mall and ♥ sent me home. :]

WEDNESDAY, 10 NOVEMBER 2010

I had to wake up at 4:30AM to get ready. Amy was leaving for China with the TKPS basketball players that day. Seems like she was very excited about it - she didn't had any trouble waking up. LOL!

Why does my sister (center) looks like a Jap girl? (^o^)

Envy, envy, envy! :[
During my batch, we had plans to go China too but it never happen.

After sending Amy off, Mommy, Daddy and I went to have breakfast at McDonalds.

Then, I went to school for Ergonomics lecture and Rhino class.

THURSDAY, 11 NOVEMBER 2010

I didn't go school that day. I fell sick due to the lack of sleep.

FRIDAY, 12 NOVEMBER 2010

Studio Project was a bummer. I seriously don't know what he wants. The water-inspired speaker he re-drew for me looks more like a hotpot dish instead of a splash of water. -_-"

Typography is... oh-so-boring-lah, okay. -_-" The way the lecturer talk is like as if he, himself, isn't interested in the module. And oh, as if there isn't enough projects going on, he gave us a poster project to do.

Anyway, after school, Su, Som, Carina, Xiu Bin and I went to Yio Chu Kang's Sakura International Buffet to have dinner. We all ate till we couldn't eat anymore. Haha. ♥ that dinner. :D

Xiu Bin & Som.

Su, me & Carina.

My new addiction: Mint Choc ice cream♥

SATURDAY, 13 NOVEMBER 2010

Hmm, what did I do again? Helped Mom out with the chores, texted ♥, watched TV. That's it, I guess?

SUNDAY, 14 NOVEMBER 2010

Amy's coming home from China today! Yay! :D

★リリーちゃん★

467.

2010-11-08T20:18:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating. Have been going out a lot lately.

THURSDAY, 4 NOVEMBER 2010

School was alright, I guess? We didn't do much, really. Totally slacked during Model-making class and Consumer Lifestyle GSM was boring. -_-" Thank god, there wasn't any Photography GSM. I wanted to go home early that day.

♥ fetched me from school and sent me home. Once I reached home, quickly showered, pack my bag and my family and I left for my Aunt's house. It was Grandmother's 1 year death anniversary.

The prayers and dinner went well, I guess. Helped to wash the dishes when Kak Fathin came and called me, "Suharti Wijayah Kusomo" and started talking to me in Indonesian accent. Hahaha! That bacen fella. XD

Watched TV, used my laptop and went to sleep.

FRIDAY, 5 NOVEMBER 2O1O

Woke up so early in the morning because the elders were super loud when they talked. Rolled around the mattress, almost hitting Nana in the face. Haha! Showered, had breakfast, used my laptop, played computer games with the twins - Alisha and Amelia. Watched TV and Mom asked if I wanted to go home with her to change clothes before going to Expo.

Agreed, took the cab home, showered, changed, and went to Singapore Expo with the whole family. Had Chicken Tortilla Burittos and Pizza for dinner. Did some shopping at the sale there and Daddy bought me a super cute yellow bag with a huge white ribbon on it. Hehe. Thank you, Daddy!

SATURDAY, 6 NOVEMBER 2010

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, ASY♥!

♥ thought that I was still at staying over at Marine Parade when I was actually walking around the neighbourhood in the hot early afternoon, buying this and that for his birthday. Called him up and told him to come to the void deck behind his block.

I was struggling to put fire on the candles, okayyy! Like seriously, the wind were blowing so strong that day. And the passerbys were looking at me, one even asked me, "YOU CELEBRATING BIRTHDAY AH? :D" Yes, loudly.

P/S: I can't rotate the picture! I don't know why! :(
Will try and edit this tomorrow.

♥ came, shocked to see me there, his handsome face smiling. :D ♥♥♥ Cut the cake, gave him his birthday card and present. Talked for a while and yeah, I sent the birthday boy home. :]

Went home, waited for my family to get ready and we went Parkway Parade to have lunch/dinner. I had Nasi Ayam Penyet Obama which tasted super awesome. LOL! Went to ECP and Daddy rented all of us bicycles. :D Cycled for 2 hours and we went back to Parkway Parade again and did some shopping. Daddy bought me new shoes this time. Hehe, thank you, Daddy! :D

SUNDAY, 7 NOVEMBER 2010

I stayed at home the whole day and chiong-ed my Colour Studies assignment from morning till night. Wasn't really satisfied with the results.

MONDAY, 8 NOVEMBER 2010

I totally didn't had the mood to go school today. No, it isn't Monday Blues. I just... totally didn't want to go school but I went anyway.

Illustrator was alright, I guess? We edited the iPhone 4 we illustrated last week. Colour Studies was slack. I outlined my shoe with markers - which made it look a lot better and I submitted it. Mr. Ng and the Head of Colour Studies said mine was acceptable - so thank God I didn't had to re-do.

Drank bubble tea and ate the food Mom packed for me this morning.

Drawing class was okay, I guess? Managed to draw much better than last week - only in my opinion, of course. Haha.

And today, I just don't feel like doing anything. Gonna slack tonight. Bubbye. :D

first,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

466.

2010-11-02T20:33:00.010+08:00

Been very busy these days. Tired and exhausted. Didn't had time to update my blog. So sorry. :/

THURSDAY, 28 OCTOBER 2010

Model-making was alright. I managed to sketch two drawings - and Mr. Ayob told me to choose my blender for the project. Like... -_-" It's difficult to do, you see. :/ I'm so scared I'll screw it up. God, help me, please.

I had GSMs later. Kinda boring, but it was alright because I had awesome friends to be with - Carina, Som and Wei Jie.

FRIDAY, 29 OCTOBER 2010

Had Studio Project and Typography that day. School was boring, really. After school, I met up with Mary and we went somewhere to get something. Can't mention it here until the surprise is over. But here's some pictures. :]

I love Mary's new hairstyle, seriously. She doesn't look local at all. ♥

Heels, heels, heels! ♥ I want one for my birthday. :D
After meeting Mary, I went off to Downtown East to meet my family for dinner at Sakura - Daddy's treat at his favourite restaurant. :]

Sushisushisushi♥♥♥

Seafooood. :D

Cold soba noodles which tasted way too cold.

Lotsa food in front of me. I loike! XD

Candid pictures. Haha.

Amy♥

Fake Shark Fin soup.

More fooood. And oh, see that?! Chawanmushi♥!
The one in the white cup.

Amy playing Doggie Dash on my phone.
Later, we walked around Downtown East. There was a Halloween celebration going on. I took some photos but it's 10PM now - and I'm too chicken to open up the files and upload it here, I'll admit that. Seriously, the make-up were super scary. :/ Maybe I'll upload tomorrow during the day? Haha. ~~Or never at all. XD~~

Did some grocery shopping at Downtown East, drank Double Hot Chocolate with Marshmallows from Coffeebeans. :D Yum, yum! And we watched people bowl too.

SATURDAY, 30 OCTOBER 2010

Uhh... I kinda forgot what I did? LOL! XD

SUNDAY, 31 OCTOBER 2010

Usually, on Halloween, I'd celebrate it with my neighbourhood friends. But this year, everyone was too busy to organise the party and games. ;( Gosh, I miss the pumpkin tarts we'd have each year, the candies. But I miss my friends more. So this year, on Halloween, I simply stayed at home and did sketches. Watched Harry Potter too.

MONDAY, 1 NOVEMBER 2010

School was a long and tiring day. :/A bummer, really. But later, my classmates and I had a belated Halloween party. We bought pizzas and drinks. So I guess my day ended pretty well? Haha.

TUESDAY, 2 NOVEMBER 2010

School was just ... -_-" Sketches and more sketches. Why, oh, why did I end up in this course of all others? Demo, ganbaremasu! (But still, I'll try my best!) :]

I met up with ♥ after school. Had lunch at Seoul Garden. :D Window-shopped and I sent him off to work. ♥♥♥ Take that! XD Thank you for today. :]

whatever you like,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

465.

2010-10-27T20:14:00.002+08:00

Today, I had Ergonomics lecture at school. Don't understand what it was all about. I only wrote notes and yawned most of the time. Super boring. Not to mention, for some reason, I was having a terrible stomach ache.

For lunch, Carina, Som, Su, Xiu Bin and I went to Macs. Oh, and Carina gave me Macs Gift Vouchers. Haha. Thank you!!! Went for Rhino class and OMG... I felt so blur today. -_-" Luckily Pearline and Serine were there to help me out. Went home with Carina after that. I'm feeling sick now. Mom is currently sick too, wrapping herself with her blanket - and to make things worse, school is 9AM to 6PM tomorrow. Hopefully GSM won't take long.

Ugh, gotta go do sketches for Model-making now. -_-" Wish me luck, people! And oh, I miss my ♥ :/ I wanna meet him soon.

stuttering,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

464.

2010-10-26T18:29:00.007+08:00

HELLO! IT'S BEEN SO, SO, SO, LONG. I'M FINALLY BACK! :D I MISS BLOGGING SO MUCH AND REALISED THAT MY ENGLISH WORSENED LATELY - that's why I decided to start blogging again. :D Heh.

Life has been alright so far. School is fun because I have such an awesome class although projects and assignments can be such an ass ~~all the time~~ sometimes. -_-" So many sleepless nights but like I've said before, it's manageable so far. And oh, holidays is ♥.

What have I been up to these past few months?

Attended a wedding in Malaysia with my family, aunts, uncle and cousin. :]

Had an awesome dinner at Pandan City.

The babies came to our house to play. :D

Colour Studies which I nearly failed for handing up late. -_-"
It's supposed to be a lampshade and it ended up looking like that. LOL.

And I baked Kueh Raya. Hehe.

Hari Raya! :D

Hari Raya was different without Grandma around this year.

Very different. Of course I miss Grandma and want her back.
But I know she's at a better place and is always watching over us. :]

I miss you, Grandma.

The babies are getting superbly hot and gorgeous too.
Seriously, BabySufiah would pass as a model for kids clothes or something. ♥

Daddy bought this grilling place thingy and we BBQ-ed chicken wings. :D

And the babies came to play again. :D

Cute, rrriigghtt? Seriously, the younger sister is super pretty.

And two weeks before school re-opened, ♥ brought me to Universal Studios Singapore to relieve stress and have fun. I think it was the best day ever during the holidays. Thanks, ♥ :D Photos can be found here.
not afraid,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

463.

2010-07-08T00:35:00.002+08:00

People have been feeding me a lot lately. I appreciate it. Haha. I feel so poor, but still - I appreciate it. Yesterday, boyfie♥ fetched me from school because I was feeling quite sick. He went all the way to AMK Hub, bought me Jollibean, Pie Kia and even bought me fresh milk to make me feel better - which helped, really. Thank you~ And then today, Carina bought for me Cheezy Sausages from Koufu - Thank you, darling~ and just a few hours ago, Daddy ordered Canadian Pizza and Chicken Wings for dinner because Mommy didn't cook. Thank you, Daddy~ :]

School is a living hell. That's all I can say. I don't know if I can survive for 3 years. I'm praying hard everyday. Wish me luck. I hope I won't ever give up. Ganbaremasu.

eventually... it's you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

462.

2010-07-05T23:45:00.005+08:00

Monday came too soon. It's only the beginning of the week and I'm already feel so exhausted, so old. God, save me. I miss my holidays, really. :(

Anyway, boyfie♥ have been trying to cheer me up lately. Watched Karate Kid, Toys Story 3, Eclipse and the best thing of all was - he brought me to the new Skypark.

And yesterday was...

DADDY'S HAPPY 58th BIRTHDAY!

Blueberry mousse cake. :D

Act cute, seriously. Pinch you then you know!! XD

Baby Hakimi was doing his monkey dance. :D

The babies came to our house to surprise Daddy. ♥ After we cut the cake at home, we left and had dinner at Downtown East's Sakura. :D Yummy food. Walked around, did a little shopping and yeah, went home.

It's late now, I have to sleep or I won't be able to wake up tomorrow. Goodnight. :]

no more pain,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

461.

2010-07-03T15:05:00.002+08:00

Dear Mom,

I love you a lot. I don't say it. I've never said it before but I hope you know that I love you a lot. More than anyone/anything in this world. I didn't mean everything I said just now. I don't know why I lost temper, I don't know why I answered rudely. I don't know really, I'm so sorry. Something clicked inside me the moment you said that I didn't care about this family anymore.

Mom, you're wrong... I miss you a lot, I miss the whole family a lot. Because of school projects and assignments, I no longer have time to do anything else. It's only the first week of school and look, I've already got new projects/assignments to complete.

I was an embarrassment to our family when I had to re-take my O's last year, I know. You faced discrimination because of me. I don't want history to ever repeat itself. That's why I decided to focus on school, do my very best, make you proud - even if it means that I don't get enough sleep and fall slightly sick. I'm doing all this for you, for Dad, for Amy. I want all of you to be proud of me, proud that I was born in our family. Glad that I am a part of your life. I want all of you to know that I love you guys so much that I'm willing to sacrifice the time I have with all of you, to succeed in school, in life and take good care of you and Dad when you grow old. I want to be like Dad, I want to be able to support the family in future. I want to love my family forever.

...
I never once wanted you to worry about me.
I never once wanted you to feel lonely.
I never once wanted you to feel that I stopped caring about this family.
I'm so, so, sorry. I failed again.

Mommy, honestly, I feel lonely too.
But... I am happy. I try to be. :')
Probably because I know I had you with me all these while.

Yours truly,
Liyana.

460.

2010-06-30T19:48:00.006+08:00

Money, money, money. Daddy have been nagging because the electricity bill is ~~sky-rocket~~ high this month - and I know it's all my fault because I remember sleeping late almost every day to complete all my assignments which = to high electricity bill.

Sometimes, I don't feel like staying at home to complete all my assignments because I know I'll use a lot of electricity. Completing assignments at school would kill me because I live very far from school. Journey back home would be insane. ... And somehow, this course needs a huge ~~retarded~~ sum of money to buy materials. At times, I feel so scared to ask money from Dad because after all, he's the only one working in the family.

I'm sorry for not studying hard enough and ended up in this course, Daddy.
I understand how tough it must be for you. I won't ask anymore.
I'll use my own allowance to get materials. :)
Daddy, I love you and Happy Birthday in advance.
- - -

In case you didn't know, school re-opened last Monday. Even though it's only Wednesday, it's hell already. Tons of projects and assignments to complete. A few more weeks and it's vacation. Oh yeah, babyyy~! :D

Anyway, U-KISS Meet and Greet Session & Showcase rocks, really. :D Pictures can be found in this facebook album of mine. Alexander was... just... ASDFGHJKL!

Muscle-man. :D ♥♥♥
If I were to blog about the two days U-KISS performed in Singapore - this blog entry would turn into an essay instead. Haha!

Chocolate fondue with marshmallows Amy and I shared the other day at Singapore Expo. :D
Yummy, really.

My Mocha Chips and Su's Caramel Frappe.
Somehow, because of school, we became coffee addicts. LOL.

We had drawing class today and our lecturer told us to draw a potrait of ourselves.
Difficult, please.

Anyway, Happy 460th blog post!
Because I feel like it. Haha.

love ya,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

459.

2010-06-19T00:00:00.004+08:00

I. Ditched. My. Blog - because it's the holidays!!! :D I ♥♥♥ holidays. But at the same time, hate it. Too many projects, yo. Today, I went to school to meet Su and Xiu Bin to discuss our Communication Skills project. Was having lunch with them when Xiu Bin pointed to the window next to me and asked:

Xiu Bin: Liyana, I've been looking at it, but what is that ah...?
Me: Huh? What?
Xiu Bin: That thing next to you. Design ah?

Turned towards the window and I saw a cockroach right in front of my face. Seriously, I freaked out like mad in Koufu. Not funny, really. Hate those things.

Anyway, I met boyfie♥ after group discussion and we went to Marina Square to have lunch. Walked around Esplanade, bought chocolate marshmallows and chocolate strawberries, went to the rooftop and sat down, looked at the awesome view. I had lotsa fun. Suddenly boyfie♥ took my bag and took out tickets to watch U-KISS live.

.........
Where did that came from?
♥ Somehow, he'll always have the best surprise for me. ♥ him.

~~I look sick. Sorry.~~
mystery,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

458.

2010-06-12T00:11:00.007+08:00

Finally, school holidays have arrived and I got some time to blog now. School have been a bummer because of the overload of projectsss. Been sleeping only 3-5 hours these few days. So yes, I ♥♥♥ holidays, my new-found friend/classmates and yeah... I'm trying my best to love school as well. :]

Even though it's the holidays, school gave us tons of work to do. -_-" But oh-kay lah. At least no school and tiring days. :] Oh yeah, got tons of photos to upload here. ♥

The babies came over my house to play. :D

Was only able to take Sufiah's photo because Hakimi was too hyper. XD

Smiley potato fries thingy Mom fried.
Haha! I don't know the name - but it was cute and tasted nice. :]

Uhhhh.... What is this called again? I forgot.

One night, I was chiong-ing Studio Project when the
lava lamp started looking like an atomic bomb blast. Adorable.

Liang Ying's drawing during Engineering Materials lecture.
Spot me! :D

The other day, boyfie♥ took me to Seoul Garden for early dinner.
Kimchi, baby!!! :D

And their awesome Mint Chocolate & Chocolate Chips ice cream which I covered with nuts. :D
There are more photos, actually. But it didn't look appetizing enough so I won't be uploading it.
Thanks for the meal, boyfie♥!

For my GS Module, we made a dinosaur egg and a cup.
I ♥ my 'marshmallow' mug. Wanna put it on display as soon as I'm able to take it home. :D
The egg looks gross, I know.

Shared money with Su this morning to buy a Tuxedo-something cake at Gloria Jeans.
Super nice lorh! :D

~~Alvina's XD~~ Carina's drink, Xiu Bin's Shepard Pie & Som's Brownie & Ice Cream. :D

Had lunch with boyfie♥ today.
He bought fishball noodles, I think? :]

And he bought me a Korean Spicy Seafood noodle with extra kimchi.
(^_^) Thank you!
Right, gonna watch We Got Married now because it's awesome like that. Goodnight, everybodayyyy!!! It's school holidaysssssss!!! :DDDDD

airplanes,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

457.

2010-05-27T14:20:00.005+08:00

Currently in Lecture Theatre 4 - waiting for Mr. Soon to arrive for Design Methodology. With the whole class now. :D

I spent my weekends playing, watching Korean variety shows, did Colour Studies and edited my Studio Project. -_-" So busy these days and I feel just oh-so-sad. D: Can't do anything about it. Am waiting for the holidays - but I bet it's going to be filled with tons, and tons, and tons of school projectssss.

NOT FUNNY. >:@
And by the way, I'm feeling sick. :(

change,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

456.

2010-05-27T14:20:00.004+08:00

Had my lunch just now. Only Tom Yam instant noodles and Iced Milk Tea. Currently in Space & Interior Design class. Industrial Design students were shoo-ed out from our classrooms and thank goodness SID peeps were kind enough to share their class with us. :]

Thank you, SID! :D
I have tons of project to complete over the weekends. It's sad how I don't even have time for myself. These days, I've been slacking - just to get more sleep. Seriously, even Mom is worried about me not getting enough sleep. Whatever, really. I'm too tired.

Guitar Club have been awesome lately. But the songs we play are oldie. Oh, and by the way, Jason Mraz have been a hit these couple of days in our Guitar Club. LOL.

Anyway, yesterday, accompanied my parents to TKPS to get Amy's report book. Gosh, try harder, Amy. Really. Please. Then, we went to the babies house to give them some candy. Cutestuffs, really. :D

♥♥♥
Went home and Abang Amin came to re-string my acoustic guitar. Yay! And thanks! :] Oh, and during yesterday's drawing class, Carina, Su and I did a little bit of webcam-ing. LOL.

Right, am waiting for my 3D Appreciation to start. -_-" Will be meeting ♥ later for dinner. Yay!

monster,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

455.

2010-05-24T23:48:00.002+08:00

I only had 3 hours of sleep yesterday and I'm so exhausted. Today was alright, I guess. I realised I was a little cranky because I lacked sleep. Oh, and I saw someone I don't ever want to see in my lifetime and there was a really fcuked up bitch who kinda ticked me off. Oh well, no point wasting my blog space on her.

Right, gotta go do my Colour Studies assignment now. :] Guitar club tommorrow. Music is ♥, yo!

love ya,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

454.

2010-05-22T01:32:00.006+08:00

I know, I know, I know. My blog is dead. I've been so busy with school assignments and projects really. Every week, there will be at least minimum 4 projects to complete by the next week - it's not funny because I don't even get to see my family by the time I get home. I miss everyone. :'(

Things have been hard for me and boyfie♥ have been trying his best to motivate me and cheer me up. He bought me this and that, treat me to Pizza Hut last week, been fetching me from school almost everyday and today, he bought the awesome chocolate marshmallows from Esplanade and a lava lamp - because I said I wanted it the other day.

People might think that I'm weird for wanting a lava lamp - but I don't care. :] Weird is different and different is awesome. (^_^)v Thanks for everything, boyfie♥

Recently, the babies came over to my house to play. I love them a lot, really - and I do miss them every second.

And the other day when I was a little richer, I went to have lunch with my new-found friends. :]

Liang Ying, Som and Su.

Carina, myself and Xiu Bin.

And the other day, we celebrated Aunt's birthday. I wanted to cry because Grandmother wasn't there to celebrate it with us like last year. :') I miss my late Grandmother a lot.

Grandma, I'm holding onto the words you once told me.
I'm hanging on even when I feel like letting go most of the time.
You know, the other day, Mommy and Daddy told me how proud they were of me for the first time ever.
I feel so, so, so happy. I wish I could tell you that.
I long for your kisses, Grandmother. :')
I miss you a lot.
I love you a lot.

I'm crying and I don't even know why. I'm just tired. I try so hard to stay happy, to pretend at least. I'm trying, really. Tomorrow will be a better day. :')

sakura girl,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

453.

2010-05-01T18:20:00.003+08:00

I didn't blog for the past few days because my laptop crashed. -_-" I didn't bother to blog on my PC because I don't feel safe doing so. Haha. I mean, it's a family computer after all. :] Will update as soon as possible once I get my laptop back next week. Take care. xoxo

"Round and Round" by U-KISS

boyfie♥ ahhh!!! :D Listen from 02:45 - 03:00.
Oh, and Alexander (02:45) is like... (^_^) Haha. Amy and I saving up money to go for their concert in a few months. But like... I don't know if I can go. :'( My guitar string snapped just now, need to replace them: $30/- and because I own an acoustic guitar, I need to buy a new classical guitar for my CCA which costs almost $130, I need to pay for the beginner's lesson: $50, I need to buy a laptop fan. Wtf, wtf, wtf. Where to get money, huh?! :'(

for the record,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

452.

2010-04-26T22:35:00.005+08:00

Sorry for not blogging yesterday. I was too busy with my Studio Project research and sketches.

School today was awesome, awesome, awesome. I love today! Studio Project was alright. I presented my research to Mr. Ayob - and obviously I have to improve on it. -_-" Good luck, me. Carina then helped me to configure my laptop for me so that I'll be able to go online. Thank you, darling~ :D

During lunch, a whole bunch of us went to have lunch together and conquered a row of tables. I like! ♥ Oh, and I ate Mee Rebus again because there was nothing else to eat. -_-"

Drawing class was funfunfun. Mr. Scott's accent was awesome. Oh, and we had to practice our shading. Simple but it can be annoyingly irritating when you can't get the intensity right.

After that, we had an hour break - and somehow, the whole class decided to eat and sit together. Awesome la. Syed was telling me and Weijie how delicious the egg prata was so we decided to buy one - and it turned out alright. :D Oh, and I had Almond Coffe Bubble Tea. Hehehe.

Design Methodology was shiok because the lecturer was very entertaining. ♥

After school, Shu Gee texted me to meet boyfie♥. And seriously, I was like a blur sotong. -_-" Met boyfie♥ anyway and he gave me giftsss. A mini Domo-kun and a SHINee clock which he wrapped in a rather cute-style. :D

THANKS boyfie♥ AND SHU GEE FOR THE SURPRISE! :D
P/S: Shu Gee, next time ignore him, okay. -_-" Sorry for the trouble. But thanks. :]

I attached this cutie on my pencil case. :D

The front of the wrapping paper. :D

Look, look, look! I ♥ the clock.
And boyfie♥'s awesome at drawing, man.

boyfie♥ and I decided to have dinner at Junction 8's KFC. ~~Blahblahblah.~~ We went home. :] Oh, and did you know? I had a Japanese meal for lunch yesterday. Yum♥

School starts late tomorrow! Woot! (^_^)v

murdered in the mosh,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

451.

2010-04-24T20:54:00.006+08:00

I have been coming home late these past few days and by the time I reached home, I'd be too exhausted to blog. I have been practicing drawing and sketching too. Dakara, gomenasai.

THURSDAY, 22 APRIL 2010
I didn't have any classes on that day but I went to school anyway to do research for my Studio Project. Not much progress because none of my classmates understood what we were really supposed to do and neither do I.

After that, Carina and I train-ed all the way to City Hall. Saw Wilson, by the way. Hellohello! :D Had lunch at Burger King. Carina talked about how SHINee was staying at the hotel nearby when they came over to Singapore. ♥ ~~Blahblahblah.~~ We walked all the way to Bras Basah Complex, went to Art Friend to get my art materials. Then, we went to the nearby McDonald's to have a break, and head off to Popular to get our erasers. :] I spent a total of $90+ that day.

Carina and I were tired so we went home - and I took the wrong bus. -_-" I thought that 63 was heading towards to MacPherson Estate but I ended up somewhere in Redhill. Like - wow. ---___---"""

boyfie♥ then fetched me from MacPherson. We went to Ubi to pay my bills and yeah, I hurried home because I was too exhausted.

FRIDAY, 23 APRIL 2010
Workshop class was fine yesterday. Just another project to do. Oh, and people find it surprising how this course was one of my last ~~few~~ choices. Still, I'll try my best to succeed, really. :]

Workshop class ended super early, so Carina, Som and I had lunch... And uh, I forgot what we did. LOL. XD

At 1PM, we had our Communication Skills lecture - which is my new favourite! Fun lecturer, fun thing to study - and it involves language. :] ♥♥♥

After school, Carina, Som, Weijie, Su and I went to print our lecture notes. Later, I met Mary in the train, and went to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Surbhi. Had dinner at Pastamania. Yum♥ ~~Blahblahblah.~~ We went to 313 and did a bit of window shopping, bought cookies for boyfie♥ because he's awesome like that and I went home early.

Passed boyfie♥ the cookies at the nearby block, went up to my house, showered, sketched and slept. That's how tired I was and still am.

"A PAGE" by Akanishi Jin

I ♥♥♥ this song. Been listening to it all day long.
His English have gotten a lot better, really. :]
Oh, and here's the meaning behind "A PAGE". ♥

"Now I sit inside can't believe that i tried
But I'd let it all go just to know
Did you really trust in me or was it just a show
Now the shows that I go get a little bit longer
And the motivation gets a little stronger"

♥
And here's my new love. :D

Alexander from U-KISS. :D

Credits: ♥
Saving up money to watch U-KISS when they come to Singapore. Who's going?! :D

a page,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

450.

2010-04-21T22:21:00.003+08:00

School today was alright. :] Only had one lesson - drawing. Which I found it to be super fun. The lecturer was fun in a way lah. Oh, and I found out I need to buy more art materials. :'( NNNUUUUOOOO!!

Anyway, during lunch, Weijie joined me, Carina and Som. I had McDonald's for lunch again. -_-" I have a feeling I'll get sick of it soon. Where to find good food in school ah? :/

Went to get my ez-link card and checked out the CCAs. Taek Kwondo or Guitar Club? Can't decide~ I don't even know whether I have time to take part in CCA lor. Pfft. After that, we had to go to the Auditorium to attend a campaign. It was alright, I guess. Learnt a lot about ideas. Haha. Oh, and I saw Salihin again! :D

It ended around 5:30PM and I went home. There's no class tomorrow but I have to go school to do my research. After that, I'm gonna buy my art materials. Hohoho. (^_^)

wonderful tonight,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

449.

2010-04-20T22:15:00.003+08:00

Believe it or not, I was late for school today by 10 minutes? Haha! Only one lesson today. Colour studies - and I found out I need a lot of money to buy my art materials. :'( Have to say bye-bye to new laptop. I thought maybe I could buy a new, lighter one - but maybe not. Pfft.

After school, I met boyfie♥. Went to City Hall to have lunch, walked around and we went home. :D Oh, and he was kind enough to top up my ez-link card for me. Thanks! I'll pay you back, really. :] Oh, and I saw Victor in the bus. LOL.

And I fell in love with this girl. Is that alright? XD

AMBER! ♥

Credits: ♥
eat you up,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

448.

2010-04-19T21:14:00.003+08:00

I was extra early for school today because I realised I didn't have enough money in my ez-link card. Had to travel all the way to Ang Mo Kio to top up my card. Anyway, met Shu Gee and Zeon at Yio Chu Kang train station. We waited for Zuee but she didn't show up. Zeon, was she with you in class? :/

Anyway, first lesson was fine, I guess. Studio Project. Nothing much - just a briefing for my project. Ugh, it's so D&T-like. Makes me wonder if I would've done better at D&T instead of F&N. Well, ever since Secondary 1, my D&T was definitely better - but then. :] Yeah, this project is so D&T-like, man.

During break, Carina, Som and I went to the south canteen and bought bubble tea. Yum, yum. :] Next lesson was drawing, I think? Which I sucked real bad - but the lecturer said my ring was good. :D YYYEEESSSAAAHHH!!! Still, my drawing sucks like mad. Haha. Oh, and did I mention Carina went high when she found out that our drawing lecturer was a Korean? :] Anyounghaseyo seonsangnim~!

Lunch was next and we bought McDonald's. Yummy~! Design Methodology was fine, I guess. I almost cried when the teacher mentioned how Literature was related to design. Just like Literature, in design, you have to apply Literature skills to see the 'details' of something. :'( I was so worried that I would've to drop my Literature skills because I thought there wasn't any relation with design. But boy, I'm so glad, man. :D

Oh yeah, and I saw Salihin at Koufu today for the first time. Eh, eh, eh. One day meet up and have lunch together leh! :D

School didn't end at 8:50PM today because the lecturer for my last lesson wasn't in school. :D Yay~! Met boyfie♥ at Yio Chu Kang station, took the train to Woodlands and went to Popular to check the price for my course materials. So expensive la, can?! -_-"

Oh, and I saw a SHINee clock at Comic Connections. :D OMGOMGOMOGMGOMGOMG! I WANT! Someone buy for me, pretty pleaseee? Anyway, boyfie♥ bought Polar and we went home. :]

Ima wa onaka ga suita (Now, I'm hungry). Bye-bye!

it's happy line,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

447.

2010-04-18T17:31:00.006+08:00

Today rocks because Baby Hakimi and Baby Sufiah came over to my house to play. :D No one knows how much I miss them, really. But Mom probably miss them more than I do. We played with random toys, watched Moonface on okto together, had lunch together. :]

I LOVE THEM A LOT! ♥

Look at what Amy wrote on a piece of paper just now. :]

♥
Oh yeah, and this is the purikura Amy and I took recently. :D Just uploading it up for fun - and I miss my long hair, really. :]

After the babies went home, I played lots of online games to spend my time. It's my last day of holiday, man. ... And school ends at 8:50PM tomorrow. :'( Yes, I'm still hating my timetable on Mondays. Hopefully I'll be in the same class with either Andy, Zhu Ning or that girl. I don't wanna be alone, man. By the way, is 'Beyonce' going to have lunch together tomorrow, yes? Someone text me about it, 'kay? :D

white xmas,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

446.

2010-04-17T15:02:00.004+08:00

It has been almost a month since I last updated my blog. Yes, you can say that I pretty much abandoned it. :D Was too lazy and too busy to update. In case you didn't know, Mom's not babysitting the babies anymore because their parents want them to school. With that, Mom got a new job at a kindergarten and I'm in charge of doing the chores, cooking, laundry, etc, etc. That is why I didn't update. So, so, sorry. :]

Anyway, I had my poly orientation on Thursday. Although I didn't have any friends at first, it turned out really well. Lotsa fun. (^_^)v I spent the first half of the day with Yam Ru and her friend, Daryl. Had lunch together but we had to split because of the games. Oh, and my group was 'Beyonce'. ROFLMAO! XD

I can't remember all their names but I remember most. Anyway, we played obstacle games, captains ball using the original ball, lettuce and egg. Haha! Waterbombs. :D Oh, and seriously, I don't think I've played this much physically ever since I graduated from secondary school. Haha. I mean, I didn't had any PE when I was at private school. So yeah. FUN LA! :D

Credits: Shu Gee's blog
It rained heavily in the evening and boyfie♥ had to wait for me at the MRT station in the cold for almost 2 hours because the orientation ended late. I'm sorry! :[ Anyway, 'Beyonce' came in third for the finale - thanks to Koqila and Zhu Ning for dancing to 'Single Ladies'. Haha! It ended well, really. :D

After orientation, I met boyfie♥ and we went to Woodlands to have dinner at Pastamania. Bought him egg tart from Polar since he loved it so much. XD Went to Ang Mo Kio, claimed money for my faulty ez-link card, took 22 and went home. :]

And oh, did you know? I cut my hair short. :D And I wanna dye it brown soon.

Because Ueda Tatsuya is as pretty as a girl. XD
And yeah, my hair is as short as that now. :]

Credits: ♥
And seriously, I hate my time-table. I start school at 9AM and end at 8:50PM on Mondays. :'( Sad lah, really. But looking on the bright side, I end at 2:50PM latest on other days. :D Can go dating with boyfie♥ and Mary ~~Fairy~~. Jkjk.

(^_^)v
dreamer,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

445.

2010-03-24T10:23:00.002+08:00

Type... Backspace... Type... Backspace... Type... Backspace. That is what I have been doing for the past few minutes. This house is so silent and I don't like it at all. Well, it has always been silent but... it's just extra silent today. Wish me luck. :] And I'll keep believing that tomorrow will be a better day.

try to follow me,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

444.

2010-03-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry, I just don't know where else or who else to say this to. I just... want to stop time and cry. No, I want to rewind time and relive those happy memories. When will a time machine be built? Come to think of it, I always ask for a time machine when everything is messed up - just because I regret whatever had happened. I just want to go back in time and make things right again.

There's so many things to say, I don't know where to start - but will anyone listen? Will anyone lend me a shoulder to cry on? Will anyone hug me and tell me that everything's going to be alright? Or do I have to cheer myself up like always? Tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day when in truth, tomorrow will be worse because I'll keep thinking about the previous day, regretting all over again, hating myself like always. ... It's an endless cycle which I hate but I have to tell myself to enjoy life while it last.

... I always tell people to be strong when in truth I'm not that strong. I'm not strong enough to face all this alone. I feel so alone now because... it's like, no one's listening at all. No one's here to hear me out. These damn tears won't stop rolling down, I can't stop crying like an idiot. Oh please, don't start telling me to stop crying. No one cries because they want to. I don't know about others, but I cry because... it's just all too much.

Arguing with a friend, messing things up with the person I love, getting lectured when I get home. It doesn't sound like a big deal, but it is to me because it involves the people I treasure most. No one knows. No one understands.

Make this pain go away. Take my fear away. I don't need it. Why do I feel so alone? I have probably disappointed the people who believed in me. What am I supposed to do now? Go on my knees and beg for forgiveness? Years ago, I was scared. I thought I got rid of my fears but I still am scared now. Still scared of everything, scared of the consequences, scared of everyone. I will never forget who I was because that made me who I am now.

... These tears will dry completely as time passes by. No matter how horrible things are, tomorrow will be a better day. I always believe that. I'll be fine by myself. :] ... It's just that - it's not fair how I always listen to someone when they feel troubled but no one's listening to me now. That's what I feel. :[ That is what breaks my heart each time.

lupin,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

443.

2010-03-21T00:32:00.003+08:00

This morning was really boring. Somehow, I wish I was at Genting. I mean, there are lots of fun things to do there. Like... bowling, haunted house, shooting, archery, etc, etc, etc. :D I miss my wonderland already!

Anyway, boyfie♥ asked me out today and we decided to meet at 2:30PM - and he surprised me at my house lift - with a super huge Domo-kun teddy. :D I love him, really. Took 65 and we went to Cathay and watched Remember Me. Rob was superduper hot, no kidding! ;D Lovely movie.

Then, we walked around Plaza Singapura, played arcade - and I totally won boyfie♥ in all games. Basketball and Time Crisis. XD We went to Starbucks, bought Java Chip. Went to town and had dinner KFC. boyfie♥ talked a lot during our dinner and it somehow made me feel slightly guilty. :/ Then, I started shaking. I realised I forgot to ate my medicine and boyfie♥ hurriedly sent me home and made sure I ate my medicine. Ssseeeeee?! My boyfie♥'s awesome! Thank you, really. :]

And I'm hugging my Domo-kun right now. :D
I love it!
try to follow me,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

442.

2010-03-19T21:06:00.002+08:00

HHHEEELLLOOO!!! I'm back. :D

Genting Highlands was really, really, really fun like always. I can never get bored of it. Never - and 'never' is a really, really, long time. The weather there was really awesomely cold, ate a lot of random food, drank a lot of Starbucks and Coffeebeans. Yum, yum. We took the skytrain down the mountain to shop, went back up to Genting to swim, played bowling - which I was really horrible at. Heh. Daddy and I played a shooting game together and my accuracy was 'very good' according to the person-in-charge. Yay! :D The thing I regretted not doing was playing arcade and eat fruits dipped in chocolate fondue. :'[ Mommy was afraid we'll be short of money. Anyway, we had pizza and lasagna for dinner - my treat! :D Oh, and after 8PM, there were pretty fireworks. (^_^)v

Second day was all about theme park, obviously. Fun, fun, fun. Really, really, really fun. :D I became a kid again. My wonderland. (^_^)v Oh, and then Daddy, Amy and I played archery. Seriously, Amy left me speechless when her first arrow was a bulls-eye. o_O And she kept getting lots of bulls-eye while I only got two. Haha. I guess I do better with guns than arrows, huh? XD We had lunch at KFC and played some more till night. And it became so cold at night that my nose was super red, Mommy and Amy had to walk around covering their faces because they couldn't stand the cold and Daddy used my gloves to keep himself warm. The weather was ♥. :D

Last day came and we just walked around in the super duper cold weather. Amy and I took our last roller coaster ride and yeah, we left for Singapore at noon. :]

I had fun, really. Thanks, Mommy and Daddy. Let's go again in December. XD
I'll try to work while schooling - that way, you two wouldn't have to use so much money.
December, 'kay? My birthday. XD I love you two. Thanks again. :]
I'll post pictures tomorrow. For now, I need to catch up with my JDramas. Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge, here I come! :D

P/S: I miss boyfie♥ :/ He has been working since morning. When will he stop? Skinny always makes me worry. -_-"

i hope,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

441

2010-03-18T11:04:00.000+08:00

Hiii! missed me? i'm at first world hotel's starbucks, chewing on gum. it's freaking cold today. i'm like wearing 3 layers of clothes now and i still feel cold. gtg now. bye.

440.

2010-03-15T16:09:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I met boyfie♥ because he insisted on meeting. Did nothing much really, just walked around the malls at Tampines, and shared frozen yogurt.

boyfie♥: Why is it sour?
Me: Yogurts are supposed to be sour, right?
boyfie♥: Really? ... Nah, this one must be expired.
Me: ... -_-"

Hahahaha. My ♥. Anyway, I just finished packing. :] Leaving for Genting Highland tonight. Hopefully the chocolate fondue shop is open tomorrow. Planning to get some in the morning. Haha. Yum yum. :D Will be back on Thursday night and I'll twit as soon as I get back. If there's anything, just leave me an offline message on MSN. :] By the way,

Don't miss me. XD
baby,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

439.

2010-03-12T20:56:00.004+08:00

Hehehe. I abandoned my blog again - and I feel so guilty. Forgive me. :]

Yesterday, boyfie♥ asked me out to watch Alice In Wonderland. Cute movie, really and Johnny Depp is just oh-so-adorable. :D After the movie, we walked around malls, I told boyfie♥ to buy food because he didn't eat since morning - and yeah, we had a long talk. Well, he was the one who did the talking. Haha. Cleared up misunderstandings and... yeah. :]

I'll leave for Genting Highlands on Monday night and hopefully I'll be back by Thursday night - that depends whether Daddy wants to extend another night or not. XD Which probably won't happen but it'll be lovely if my wish comes true. Genting is ♥, yo.

It's been quite long. There's a number of photos to upload.

The day we went to watch Amy's basketball tournament finals. :]
Hot baby.

And I really love her shoes. :D

Baby Hakimi is... cute. :D

He likes this photo a lot and I do too. :3

Did you know?
I love them both. (^_^)v
Recently, I made chocolate fondue. Yummy stuff.

Cho-co-late. :D

I used apples because there weren't any strawberries.

I didn't really like the taste of that cheap chocolate.
But it was yummy enough. :]
I forgot where we went but yeah,

MY rock princess. :D

And yes, they're very mini. :]
I want it to rain, can?

unwanted,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

438.

2010-03-08T22:17:00.003+08:00

You have no idea how exhausted I am today. I spent my whole day at SATA for my poly enrollment medical checkup. The queue was so long and there were only two doctors around. I only drank Red Bull for breakfast - that's it. There were no foodcourt and Daddy and I were starving like mad.

At around 4+PM, I told Daddy to go home since I knew he was tired and super hungry. ~~Besides, I didn't want him to secretly smoke while waiting for me.~~ boyfie♥ told me he wanted to accompany me. So yeah, waited for him and when that fella came... -_-" boyfie♥ was cracking very lame jokes. Nothing wrong with that, but I was just too hungry that I found it wrong. XD LOL.

Blahblahblah, we went shopping for groceries and went straight home. :] And that was what happened today. The end. :D

P/S: I'm happy I updated my blog today. (^_^)
P/S/S: I'm so, so, so, so, sorry. :'/

good bye,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

437.

2010-03-07T13:28:00.004+08:00

Hi, Lily here. Remember me? ... I probably lost some of my regular readers because I didn't update this blog for so long. I'm sorry. I was just too lazy to. ... And I'll probably lose more readers again because of my sudden fangirl rant.

[rant]

Credits: ♥
"Dear Yamashita Shoon"... Of course, he'll probably never read this. But who knows? Maybe one day, he'll google his name in romaji and finds this site and read it? In english? But yeah, there's always google translator. :D

Word has it that he has quit Johnny's Entertainment. :'( But why? Did anyone even tried to stop him? But then again... maybe this is what he wanted. Maybe this is what he thinks is best for him. ... :]

Credits: ♥
First it was Taiyo who quit, and now Shoon too? :/
Ayukawa Taiyo and Yamashita Shoon will always be remembered.
And Ya-ya-yah is forever a legend. :]

Subete no tanoshii jikan, arigatou gozaimasu, Taiyo-kun to Shoon-kun.
Korekaramo ganbatte kudasai.
Mata ne. (^_^)v[/rant]

I'm upset. Very upset. It's not because I'm a hardcore fangirl but... I have my own reasons and I'll keep it only to myself. No one can ever understand. :]

can't hear you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

436.

2010-02-24T17:46:00.005+08:00

I miss blogging. I haven't been updating like how I used to, I'm sorry. Oh, I was ttthhheeerrreee all thanks to boyfie♥. SHINee is ♥, yo. :]

Yesterday, I accompanied Mom to shop for groceries. Nothing much happened, really. Baby Hakimi was really helpful. LOL!

In the evening, boyfie♥ came to my house to give my family and I the most awesome dessert in the world: PUDDING!

It's strawberry-flavoured.
I don't really like strawberry-flavoured stuff - but seriously, that pudding tasted really delicious. :] ~~Poopy, I want more, can?~~ XD

Tomorrow, the whole family along with the babies will support Amy at her basketball finals - is it really the finals? I don't know lah. Then, we'd probably go and pay for our Genting Highlands hotel rooms. Yes, I'm going there in March, yo. I ♥ that place a lot. You all know that. :]

talk to me,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

435.

2010-02-22T21:10:00.002+08:00

I updated my playlist, yo! IU is such an awesome singer and HSJ's new music video is samurai-ish although the lyrics doesn't relate to that. But... I like! (^_^)v Someone give Yaotome Hikaru a new JDrama to act in, please! :] Orthros no Inu isn't enough to feed my 'fangirl' needs. Haha!

Today, I treated boyfie♥ to watch Percy Jackson and The Lightning Theif. It was supposed to be me treating him without him having to take out his own money - but you see, I was short of money. -_-" So sorry, skinny. :/

The movie was super awesome, really. :] ♥♥♥ Not going to say much about it because I don't want to give out spoilers. After the movie, I received a text message from Mom who asked me to buy groceries. boyfie♥ and I walked around in search for turnip and cucumber. LOL. Window-shopped and I saw a piggy bank - poop version. Haha. It looked so real and gross - and boyfie♥ 'likes' it. :] Maybe I should get that for his birthday present? That's going to be hilarious. XD

Oh, and I purposely sulked a lot today - because boyfie♥ is awesome and adorable when he tries so hard to cheer me up. I'm sorry for being so troublesome lah, k? Couldn't help it - it was so fun. :]

Went home after that and played with the babies for a while. :] Off to watch SHINee Hello Baby episode 5 now. Baby Yoogeun is mega adorable! :D

hello,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

434,

2010-02-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 48th BIRTHDAY, MOMMY!

ocean and atlantic,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

433.

2010-02-20T22:39:00.002+08:00

I need to make this fast because Mother is nagging. It's late at night and she wants me to go sleep. Nothing much happened today. Babysit the babies, talk to Mom and Dad, bought cake to celebrate Mom's birthday in advance because she said she's going out tomorrow. Oh, and I met boyfie♥ for a while. Right, pictures tomorrow. Goodnight.

missing child,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

432.

2010-02-15T19:14:00.002+08:00

I tutored Amy today, watched a Korean movie on TV. ... That's about it? -_-" These days are boring without the babies around. :/ At least, when they're here, I get to play with them and act like a kid without being too embarrassed about it. :]

Anyway, Mommy cooked seafood today. Mom knows how afraid I am when it comes to seafood, so side dish for me was: tofu and lots mushroooommmss! :D I likeee! And a few minutes ago, my Japanese neighbour came to my house to give us mochi and berries she brought from Japan. Honestly, I didn't want to eat the mochi because I thought it'll be super sticky - but really, oishii yo. (^_^)v

boyfie♥ coming home tonight - am looking forward to his call. :D Right, gonna go watch TV now. Sayonara.

snow prince,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

431.

2010-02-14T16:58:00.003+08:00

My family went to Singapore Expo and I'm all alone at home now. Just finished watching My Wife Is A Gangster 3. :/ I feel so sad because I'm extremely lonely now. Gosh. -_-" Maybe I should have tagged along to Expo with them - but then again, it's too boring there.

Anyway, had kenduri yesterday. Everything was alright, I guess. Lotsa food. :] And oh, I found out that I can still read Arabic. I was so afraid I couldn't. :D By the way, Mommy and Daddy have been planning for a Genting Highlands somewhere in March. I miss that place a lot. :] ♥

I'm gonna shower and watch 2 Days 1 Night at KBS World later - and oh, maybe SHINee's Hello Baby too. Have a nice day, everyone. Oh, Gong Xi Fa Cai and Happy Valentine's Day. :]

Saya nak warna rambut saya merah sekali lagi, boleh? :3

are you happy now,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

430.

2010-02-12T22:16:00.006+08:00

The Lunar New Year is coming soon. While there are a lot of people preparing for it, there are also some who are preparing to go on a holiday trip. For example, boyfie♥ and the babies, yup. Surprisingly, I feel so empty and lonely this Lunar New Year. They'll be back next week - no worries. :] Cheer up, Ween. But howww? I'll miss them all. :/

Did you know how sweet boyfie♥ is? Very. Yesterday, he was pleading me to go out with him since he's going overseas tomorrow morning. Somewhat like my 'last chance' to meet him before he goes - but I couldn't make it because I had to babysit the babies.

Do you see that drool? :]
My hot baby, yes.
Somehow, I managed to escape in the evening to meet boyfie♥. Took the bus to Tampines and that was when boyfie♥ gave me a gift from Couple Lab (pricey stuff, you know!). I didn't want to accept the gift in the beginning but I did when we went home. Thank you, really. :]

I took the one with his name on it. :]
It's blurry, I'm sorry. :/
We walked around the mall, played with toys, went to the library and I borrowed a book, ate yogurt, teased boyfie♥ about him being a gay XD.

Nata de Coco and Marshmellows. :]
We went home.

And that was when he told me to check the Couple Lab box properly.
I found a very, very, very, very, very beautiful necklace with stars as pendants. Close friends should know that I like stars a lot... and what boyfie♥ gave me was really beautiful. It's not pretty, it's not hot - it's beautiful. And I love it a lot. :]

Beautiful♥
Dear boyfie♥,

Why spend so much money on me? First it was those movie and meal treats, and then SHINee live (which I still remember how much I enjoyed it :]), now this two gifts. Why, why, why? You're way too rich, I'm telling you. And too sweet.

You don't let me treat you meals or movies, you don't let me pay for anything - yet, you shower me with all these. Why? :/ My wallet is all dried up this month, I hope you'll still wait for me to bake you cookies and buy you some gifts, really. I have to because you know I love you a lot. :] (Yes, public display of my love for him. XD)

You're leaving tomorrow. I hope you'll go and come back safely. Don't fall sick, please. Please eat as much as you can and don't forget to drink. Take care of yourself, your family - oh, and your maid too. You're a man, remember?! XD ... And be happy. :] Don't forget... about me. :'(

I'm telling you one time lah, skinny. I'm gonna miss you. Come back quickly hor, stinkz. Make sure you call as soon as you reach Singapore - or I'm so gonna kick you. Oppareul, saranghae. ♥

with love,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

429.

2010-02-09T16:51:00.006+08:00

"Ring Ding Dong" is oh-so-contagious. I don't think I can ever get sick of that song. Anyway, yesterday, my family and I went to Downtown East chalet at around 11+AM and checked in - by the way, we got the same room we were in two years ago. -_-" Still, I remembered how my friends and I sabo-ed Mary for her belated birthday. XD Awesome.

Didn't really do anything. Took an afternoon nap with Baby Hakimi and Baby Sufiah.

Adorable♥
When we woke up, we played with balloons and went to the nearby fitness corner to play. :3

Later, at around 4:00PM, I helped Dad start the fire and we barbecued. Amy and her friends came at around 5+PM, boyfie♥ and his brother (who is Amy's friend) arrived soon after. I don't know what got into boyfie♥ but he helped Dad with the barbecuing of food. Very rare to see him work so hard. XD

They kids played with water bombs and soap can spray. LOL. Hilarious, really. Eat, eat, eat. Barbecue, barbecue, barbecue and Amy's friends went home at around 7+PM. Then, I joined boyfie♥ and his brother to eat.

Went to Coffeebeans and bought Mom and Dad drinks, went back to the chalet, played with the fire and sent boyfie♥ and his brother off. Showered and I went to sleep. :]

This morning, I woke up, showered and went to have breakfast with Mom and Dad. Played bowling, checked out from the chalet and we went home. And now, I'm starving. :/ ~~And coughing like mad too. -_-"~~

boys & girls,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

428.

2010-02-06T22:08:00.004+08:00

Last night, I managed to surprise boyfie♥. Yay! My plan was a success. :D As I blog-ed yesterday, boyfie♥ asked me out but I told him I couldn't make it which made him pretty off mood. I had to settle some things at home, you see - so I had to create all sorts of lame lies just to surprise boyfie♥ - yes, because he's awesome like that. :]

Anyway, I left my house at 7PM and went to the library at Marine Parade where boyfie♥ was studying at. LOL, he looked so sad from far while reading his Maths notes. ... Cute. XD I put my cardigan over his shoulders and you know... Haha. He went, "Crazy ah you! I almost punched you, you know! Haha!"

Me: Surprise, surprise~ :D
boyfie♥: ... Crazy lah you. :D

And he kept saying that for the next five minutes. XD I told him about my plan to surprise him and seriously, I couldn't stop laughing. Haha! Hey, skinny. Cute lah you, really. :]

Went to have dinner with boyfie♥ - even though I told him I didn't want to eat. -_-"

After that, we walked around, I bought carrots for Mom, boyfie♥ bought Chocolate Mint ice cream, and he became super high after we entered a shop called ameba. XD They sell cool, random stuff there - but boyfie♥ went 'haywire', really. Haha!

We went home after that. And oh, he kept tickling me. OI!! Funny ah? ;D

Today, nothing much happened. I was really angry and sad early in the morning, but I slept it off during noon. I think I'm gonna try sleeping whenever I get angry. It helps, really.

Did you know? I love these two a lot. ♥

I'm gonna watch Final Destination now. Goodnight, peeps.

P/S: What you said to me this morning hurts a lot. I know people don't mean what they say when they're angry, but that doesn't mean you should just shoot and say whatever you want. Have some patience. The world doesn't revolves around you. Other people gets hurt too, you know. I'm sorry for being such a disappointment. I didn't once asked for this, you know. It's not my fault. You used to say, "You have a mouth. You can talk. So, speak up." What about you? You have ears. You're not deaf. Listen to me when I talk, will you?

only you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

427.

2010-02-05T13:30:00.003+08:00

I didn't update again, I'm sorry. But you see, there's nothing to blog about because I haven't been doing anything much lately. Everyday is the same. Wake up, babysit the babies, watch TV, etc, etc, etc. I think I can't wait for school to start? :D But I know I'll probably 'can't wait for the holidays' once it starts. Haha. Oh well, might as well I enjoy the time I have now.

boyfie♥ asked me to meet him today. Ez-link card no money lorh and my wallet feels way too light to go out. It's scary when you've got no cash at all. Haha. Anyway,

HAPPY 12th BIRTHDAY, AMY!

No presents this year because your lazy older sister isn't working. XD
Wishing you the best of health, stay healthy always.
Study hard, okay? PSLE this year hor. You promised me. :]
I've embarrassed our family name enough, make sure you don't follow me, alright?
Make Mommy, Daddy and I proud hor, makcik.
And yes, I love you a lot, AUNTY! XD
Maybe belated celebration next month? I'm sorry. :P
By the way, I watched Bloody Monday Season 2 last night and Aoi died. :'(

aha,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

426.

2010-02-02T16:42:00.006+08:00

In case you all didn't know, I had the best time of my life last evening.

:D
Met boyfie♥ at 5PM - yes, I was late again. Sorry! XD Took the bus/train and went to Marina to have lunch.

boyfie♥: Eh, the chicken nice. Really. Try it.
Me: *eats the chicken*
boyfie♥: Nice, right? :D
Me: ... No, I cook nicer. :3
boyfie♥: Yeahhhh... Right. You cook instant noodles only, right? XD

Haha! It has been long since I last cooked.

He ate! XD
He's so skinny and looks like he doesn't eat at all,
but he ate. :D

You should know which stickman took this candid photo of me. LOL.
Then, we sat outside esplanade and boyfie♥ was being so silly.

Me: Eh, you gay, right? XD Which one is the hottest guy here?
boyfie♥: Me lah. Who else?
Me: ... HAHA! Random lah you!
boyfie♥: -_-" Really, I'm SHINee's sixth member. You don't know meh?

ROFL, sixth member. XD This fella never fail to make me smile. :] Anyway, 7:15PM, we went to Esplanade Door 1 and found out that our seat was pretty close to the stage. LOL, boyfie♥'s fault for buying expensive tickets. -_-" ... :D

Concert started and Oh Joonsung and gang played pretty nice OSTs. I didn't know which OST came from which drama, really - but they sounded nice. Wasn't boring at all and I honestly didn't fall asleep. XD And then Oh Joonsung said something along these lines during the concert:

Oh Joonsung: My English... A little bit.
Audience: Ohhhh... *applause*
Oh Joonsung: I love Singapore.
Audience: *applause & cheers*
Oh Joonsung: I love Singaporeans. :D
Audience: *crowd go mad (Haha)*

Oh Joonsung: DBSK.
Audience: *girls definitely went "Kyaaaaa~"*

Haha. Oh Joonsung is a very fun person indeed. :D Then, later, Bobby Kim came out. Hottieeeeee~ XD He sang two songs, and then some more instrumental songs. Then,

SHINee!
ASDFGHJKL!@#$%^&*()
I read online that there were a lot of worries about SHINee guys being so skinny, but really, they're not. They looked normal-sized - but extra super cute and extra adorable, really. :D Hot too. Haha!

From left to right: Onew, Taemin, Jonghyun, Minho & Key
♥♥♥
Jonghyun was so awesome.
And I loved Key's outfit the most. :D
They sang Countdown and Stand By Me - and they sounded great live. Oh, by the way, the whole time when they were on stage, fangirls were going wild. Haha! But really... SHINee is just ♥

After their performance, more instrumentals from Boys Over Flowers and that's the end of the show. The audience started shouting for an encore and Oh Joonsung came out again and played more songs from Boys Over Flowers.

Oh Joonsung: Because I'm stupid. (One of BOF OST; SS501 song. :D)
Audience: *Kyaaaaa~*
Oh Joonsung: Maybe... them... next time in Singapore. But tonight me. :D

Haha. Cute lah he - and he got a nice singing voice, that's expected from an amazing composer/musician. XD And he mentioned more DBSK, Super Junior, f(x) - LOL. The audience obviously went wild-er. Hahaha. ♥ the concert, really. Then later, everyone came out and received flowers - Bobby Kim, SHINee. Taemin - Haha! That fella, he pretended to throw the flowers he received to the audience but ended up hugging it back. ... Adorable. :D But really,

I wouldn't have the chance to watch them live
if it wasn't because of my lovely stickman. :D
THANKS, boyfie♥!
Thank you, really. Thanks a lot. I appreciate it. :D
It's definitely the best birthday gift ever! (^_^)
♥ you more than I love SHINee, skinny. :]
After the concert ends, boyfie♥ bought chocolate marshmellows and we went home. :] I was a happy, happy, happy girl last night. You have no idea how happy I was. So, so, happy. Really am. :D

pieces,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

425.

2010-01-31T14:47:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow's Monday - and in the evening, I'll be able to watch SHINee perform live all thanks to boyfie♥. Hey, skinny. Meet you at 4:30PM, 'kay? :]

Yesterday, went shopping with my family at Parkway Parade. I didn't buy anything because nothing was interesting enough to buy. :] Went home, and found the goodie bag boyfie♥ left at my doorstep. Mom, Amy and I ransacked everything inside the bag, and yeah, Mom and Amy were pretty much arguing about who gets what. XD

Met boyfie♥ for a while and he passed me the vouchers. Went to Downtown East with Mom and Amy, bought my stuff, registered for nEbO and then went home. Most probably will be going to Downtown East again today. :] Can I get coffee from Coffeebeans, please? It has been so long.

And she is still very, very, very pretty. :D
Canon pictures have always been so pretty, did you know that?
Daddy, I want one can? XD
By the way, before I forget,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, YABU KOTA!

Credits: ♥

Love the guitar.
He doesn't look 20, really. :]
He's already that tall, imagine boyfie♥ who is slightly taller than him.
You see, that is why I call boyfie♥ "lamp post" and "giraffe". My lamp post, my giraffe, my stickman - no stealing! XD ♥♥

pieces,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

424.

2010-01-29T22:10:00.004+08:00

And I'll dedicate this song and today's post to you - because you have no idea how much I still love you, how much I still care for you although it has been years since we last talked.

"Scars" by Allison Iraheta

And while I play my guitar, I'll let you sing this song.
I'll watch you cry, I'll listen to you, I'm still here for you.
Why can't you see?
Things are hard between you and your family, I know. I've been watching you secretly these past few years - not in a stalker way or anything like that, but really. I've been missing out a lot from your life and I hate it. I hate myself for letting this happen. I hate myself for giving up on us. But what was I supposed to do? I tried everything I could to save our friendship, but it all went to waste when I figured out that you probably didn't even care at all. You were having the time of your life with others, so why was I wasting my time feeling horrible, why am I still wasting my time feeling the same now?

No matter how much I want to hate you for doing this to me, no matter how much I want to ignore you like how you ignored me, I can't - just because you once told me that I was the only one who can make you smile and sad at the same time and that you loved me a lot - and I still want to believe that. :/ Do you still remember? Do you still remember how everyone thought we were biological sisters? Do you still remember how we used to go to school together and laugh at the silliest things, cry together when we're down, wait for each other during recess and after school? Do you still remember how we always had candies for breakfast? Do you still remember... everything? :'(

I love you a lot, a lot, a lot. I still do. I miss you a lot, I don't know if you knew. Please stay strong. Please don't ever give up with everything that is going on in your life. There is always a solution to everything. "If there's a will, there's always a way" - you told me that once before. And please, be happy like how you always used to. Smile like you mean it. :] It doesn't matter if I'm not a part of your life anymore, I just want you to be happy.

All I wanted was for you to talk to me, _ _ _ _.
Let's talk like how we used to. :]
I miss you. I'm just a text message / a call / a few blocks away if you ever need me.
I know you're reading this. :) I know you are.

scars,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

423.

2010-01-27T21:30:00.007+08:00

I got my JAE results this morning at 6:18AM. It was too early that I almost thought it was a prank.

NANYANG POLYTECHNIC, INDUSTRIAL DESIGN.
Why, oh why? Like Oh My God - it's my 12th choice.
And I'm not even good at art. :'(
I had no one to rant to, so I had to turn to my poor, lovely Twitter. (I'm sorry for spamming your Twitter, people! :D) On the other hand, Mom and Dad are proud enough that I got myself into NYP. But still... Oh well, I won't even bother to appeal, seriously. Because you see, who knows? I'd probably like this course. But then again... It's design, yo. :/ I'm not even an art student. I have no other choice but to work and study hard. Alhamdulillah - at least I'm doing a lot better than I did last year. :] I no longer have to hang my head low. Honestly, last year was a struggle for me. Discrimination and everything - you have no idea how tough it was.

Anyway, this morning, Mom, Baby Hakimi, Baby Sufiah and myself went to Kallang Avenue for Mom's job interview. Those two babies were such a hassle. They wouldn't behave. -_-" We went home around noon and I called boyfie♥ and asked him to accompany me for lunch because Mom didn't cook. Brought Baby Sufiah along and... boyfie♥ wouldn't leave Baby Sufiah alone - which I found it to be super adorable of him. XD

Paid my house bills and we walked to the nearby playground. Baby Sufiah became super hyper and after a while, we went home. Eh skinny, thanks for accompanying me. :D

Random pictures in no particular order:

My Barney. ♥

At McD. :]

Ajim and Dia. :D
I think this was at Singapore Expo? After I played hide-and-seek. XD

boyfie♥

Messy eater this fella. XD

Kat, Fifa and I used to play with Ketchup at Long John.
And I did the same last Friday when I was with boyfie♥.
Stickman = boyfie♥
He's too skinny, you see. :]

At the CC? Some kind of show. Haha.

LOL. XD

And this was today. Haha.
Oh, according to this, SHINee will arrive at Changi International Airport, Terminal 3 on 29th January at 8:45PM. Ape lagi? Let's stalk! And now, I'm off to watch Hello Baby SHINee ver. :D Awesome, awesome, awesome.

fall for you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

422.

2010-01-25T22:07:00.002+08:00

My blog is not dead, nope. :] Either I've been lazy to blog these days or I have no time to. Been watching Kimi ni Todoke - awesome, awesome anime. :D I want awesome friends like that, can? But honestly saying, my friends now are way better than awesome. :D

I'm sick. Urgh, annoying. I was supposed to go to Johor with Aunt, Kak Fathin and Kak Nurul yesterday - but oh my god, I could barely stand. -_-" I hate being sick. Who doesn't?

I've been meeting boyfie♥ a lot these days - and I don't like it when he pays for every single thing. It makes me feel bad. :[ Like how he spent the money he worked hard for over the weekends on me today.

I accompanied him to the clinic because he was sick. Food poisoning. (HAHA! HOW CUTE! :D) Bought breakfast for him - and he dragged me into a taxi. -_-" Went to Singapore Expo because he said there was a 'sale'. Yyyyeeeeaaaahhhh, rrriiiggghhhttt. Turns out he was searching for a Sistic outlet - to buy the concert tickets to Oh Joonsung Drama Concert - music from Korean Drama Favourites. Yes, yes. SHINee will be performing and boyfie♥ knows I'm a fan.

But that doesn't mean you should spend all your pay on me!
>:(
When he found out there wasn't any Sistic outlet at Expo, he pulled me into a taxi again and went to Tampines 1. -_-" And while we were queuing,

Me: Let's just go. It's too expensive.
boyfie♥: No, I can't turn back now. Queuing already. :]
Me: Let's gooooooo....!
boyfie♥: Noooo. :D Let's watch SHEEni, k?
Me: It's SHINee~ :/

And he paid for the tickets. -_-"

YOU STUBBORN SKINNY FELLA!
No matter how much I want to hate you, slap you, beat you up and etc
for spending lots of money on two tickets - I can't, really. :/
I ♥ you a lot and thank you. :]
Thank you so much for making me smile with your oh-so-not-funny jokes,
spending time with me - gosh, thank you for everything, stinkz. :D
I'll definitely find a way to pay you back. It's your salary, after all. I don't want you to spend it on me. :3

light,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

421.

2010-01-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging, I know. I'm sorry. :/

SATURDAY, 16 JANUARY 2010
I didn't plan on going anywhere that night, but Mom called and told me to go Singapore Expo to get her shopping stuffs at a stall because she couldn't enter Max Pavilion to watch the concert with all that. Amy and I went, and boyfie♥ turned up to help me carry the stuff. How kind can he get? :] Anyway, we went home straight after that.

SUNDAY, 17 JANUARY 2010
Abang Firdaus called and asked if I wanted to have a picnic at East Coast Park with the family. Agreed and yup, the whole family went there. boyfie♥ wanted to meet, but I said "No" since I was with my family. He insisted, so yeah. He came and had lunch with us. Later, boyfie♥ and I took the cab to Parkway Parade. (Oh, by the way, I'm so sorry. I totally forgot about your condition. :/ I didn't mean to.)

Walked around the mall, sat down near the bus stop and talked randomly, went to Popular and then, we said our goodbyes. boyfie♥ went home while I took the lorry Abang Firdaus drove, and we all went to the hospital to pay a visit to our relative. Went back home after that. And seriously, lorry ride is always fun. It's like a roller coaster ride. (^_^)v

MONDAY, 18 JANUARY 2010
I stayed at home, babysit-ed, and slacked. Yup. :]

TUESDAY, 19 JANUARY 2010
Went out in the morning with Mom, Baby Hakimi and Baby Sufiah to alter my jeans and did some shopping. Met boyfie♥ at 5PM and we went to Dhoby Ghaut. Bought movie tickets, and we walked around Plaza Singapura - and oh, he didn't let me buy cookies for him. :/ How meannnn... Oh well, he bought nachos and drinks and we entered the cinema. Watched New York, I Love You - which reminded me of Kat who loves NY a lot. :D Funny and romantic movie, really. :]

After the movie, we bought dinner and went home. ... Seriously, I didn't even take out a single cent today - boyfie♥'s fault! >:( Grr. Next time, at least, let me pay for something, darling. Pfft.

I had fun today. I've been having fun lately. :] I love everyone, really. I love my family, I love my cousins, I love my aunts and uncle, I still love Grandmother, I love boyfie♥, I love my friends - I love everyone.

Thank you for making me smile, everyone. :]
It's been long since I've been this happy.
(^_^)
catch me,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

420.

2010-01-16T13:29:00.002+08:00

I submitted my JAE the night before last night. And last night, I accompanied Mom to Singapore Expo. Did some shopping and Mom was watching the performance when I saw someone who looked so familiar - *ehem ehem* lah eh. LOL! XD Panic, panic, panic. Run, run, run. :*, yo. You're always full of surprises.

♥
See you again. :]
right here,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

419.

2010-01-13T21:22:00.003+08:00

I spend my day reading on the courses info offered to me. I don't like making choices but I have to. I get tons of Media & Design courses, which is rather disappointing, I know - and when I told Dad, he said,

"You do what you want, alright? Study all you want.
Just don't ever give up. :]"
Daddy is awesome, yo. ♥
Oh, and because he's full of joy, Daddy wants to celebrate. But yeah, I don't know. It's not confirmed yet. Anyway, will be going over to Aunt's house to get advice from Kak Fathin. Yup, yup. Oh, and I wanna dye my hair again. :] I'm thinking of red highlights like Key's.

Credits: ♥
Or maybe something wild like Jonghyun's. :]

Credits: ♥
And the money will come in a few weeks time. :D

muzik,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

418.

2010-01-12T21:36:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was Monday, my results day. boyfie♥ probably had trouble calming me down before 2PM. I'm sorry for being such a hassle, darl. But thanks for being there for me - while eating your waffles. :D And yes, people -

I'M HAPPY WITH MY RESULTS. :]
Alhamdulillah. My hard work paid off.
I don't intend on blogging about my results, but don't worry, I did alright and I'm proud of myself. That's all that matters to me. On the other hand, choosing a course which is right for me is a hard thing to do. I find myself worrying whether the course will be able to help me in the future. Got a lot of help and advice from Amirah, Mary and Aisyah - Thanks, really. I'll most probably submit my JAE tomorrow. Wish me luck, people! Mudah-mudahan I get a good course which can help me in the future lah. Insyaallah. Amin. :]

P/S: Dear boyfie♥ be happy always and stay strong. ILY, berok. :]

happy hour,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

417.

2010-01-08T12:53:00.002+08:00

Because Daddy was in a good mood yesterday, we went to Sakura to have dinner. Was having trouble choosing my food because I'm not allowed to eat seafood. But yeah, sushi is awesome, yo. ♥

I'm loving Jonghyun's voice, really. And oh,

MONDAY!
... Yes, Monday. :| It's getting serious, you see.

love drunk,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

416,

2010-01-06T13:09:00.003+08:00

Last night, while webcam-ing with boyfie♥, I started coughing and my lungs were hurting again. boyfie♥ tried calling me but I couldn't answer because everyone else were already asleep. A few minutes passed by and boyfie♥ text-ed me to look outside my window - and there he was. :]

AWESOME OR WHAAAAAAT?! :D
I was angry at first because you see, it was late at night and he got school tomorrow. But... yeah. (^_^) When everything feels so sad and pathetic, boyfie♥ always come to rescue. :D

Boys Like Girls concert. I want to to go - but I don't have the mood to. Urgh! -.-" And no cash to buy tickets too. New bed arriving at 3PM today. I wonder if it'll be nice. I still prefer my old bed - at least I didn't have to share it with anyone. But now... Amy, you better sleep in a proper manner - or be prepared to get kicked off the bed. :]

Good day, everyone - ~~although I'm still feeling down.~~ :]

don't forget,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

415.

2010-01-04T20:44:00.002+08:00

boyfie♥: Okay, 30 seconds. Give me 30 seconds to talk to you and I'll hang up.
Me: 29, 28, 27, 26...
boyfie&hears;: Ily, ily, ily, ily, ily, ily...

He never fail to cheer me up. :] ♥ You probably think that I'm love drunk or something like that - but I'm not. boyfie♥ is awesome in his own way, and I ♥ him - a lot. :D

I didn't blog, I know. 2010 have been quite shitty, really. No,wait. It's more like being 17 is a problem. I'm sick now, Mom have been nagging, Dad have been complaining about bills, Amy will be having PSLE this year and I am supposed to tutor her, I miss Grandmother a lot, my results will be out soon, etc, etc, etc, people! ... :] I'll get used to things some day - even if I don't want to, I have to. I need an escape so bad. Just like how I twit-ed today, "Can you take me somewhere? :'/ Take me somewhere. It's too sad here."

Yes, I feel sad. :]
your guardian angel,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

414.

2010-01-02T12:24:00.002+08:00

I'm a day late, I know. Nevertheless,

HAPPY 2010!
Eimran, I know exactly how you feel because I'm feeling the same way too.
Stay strong, panda! :D Take some time to cool down, okay?
And don't think too much - you'll feel old, you know. :]
Ganbatte kudasai. (^_^)v
Yesterday, my family finally celebrated my birthday. I was LOL-ing in the morning, seriously. Mom bought a birthday cake, food, she made this dessert (I don't know what it's called) and some jelly. :D

Me: Why is it that we either celebrate my birthday in advance or belated?
Mom: Because I always feel lazy on 31st December. Be thankful, will you? :]
Me: I was just about to say "Thank You".

Foooooooooood♥. :] In the evening, I met some of my friends at Bedok Interchange and had dinner at KFC. At night, I played some random online games with boyfie♥ - and I won. Darl, I'm better than you when it comes to games lah. XD

And today, I'll be meeting Reesha and Nurul Fatin! :D

real face,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

413.

2009-12-31T14:57:00.002+08:00

I was talking on the phone with boyfie♥ when he suddenly whispered, "Eh... Happy Birthday." I laughed, "HA-HA!" and started crying silently. I don't even know why. Then, he sent a pretty long, super sweet ~~like candy~~, text message. Ehhh, kudut! D: You so mean lorh, always make me cry. :] Ily, gala! ♥♥♥

Oh, by the way,

THANKS FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY WISHES. :D
Love you people many, many.
Seriously, I don't say it for the sake of saying it.
I really love you all. :]
Happy 2010. Mom kind of spoilt my mood already, but whatever - used to it. :D ... Look, look! The sky is really clear today. :]

top of the world,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

412.

2009-12-30T22:47:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow - more like tonight at 12AM. I feel old. Is that normal? Being 16 is sad, lonely, depressing, happy, cool, fun, great, good memories, awesome - I made new friends. I stopped being too 'anti-social'. 16 is definitely happier than 15. 16 misses those days when 14 was still here. 14 was the best, really. But I have to say goodbye to 16 tonight and welcome 17. 16 is very worried. Very, very worried. How will 17 be like? But I know there's no stopping time.

I'm looking forward to 17.
I'll make it another awesome age. :]
Goodbye 16, I love you.
I think I'll post a thank you speech tomorrow because I'm too lazy to stay up tonight. ..... :D I'm happy, really. I'm so, so, so happy but I don't know why. :] 55 more minutes. Hello 17, in advance. (^_^)v

bringing you love,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

411.

2009-12-28T00:03:00.003+08:00

I know I haven't been blogging and I apologise for that. Been listening to Cherry Filter. Awesome, awesome, awesome band. ♥ And I've been having lots of fun lately - and even put myself in danger at Sentosa (Kak Fathin should know what). XD I've never felt so alive. :]

Being 17, how is it like, really? I'm still wondering about it. But time won't stop for me, I know. I'll turn that age anyway. A few more days... Tell me why the tears won't stop?

swallowing me,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

410.

2009-12-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

In case you didn't notice, I deleted two posts. I think there's no point dwelling about those horrible things. It comes and goes - and it hurts too much to have that kind of posts lingering around. I already have enough of that kind on my blog. Grandmother is probably disappointed in me. She used to remind me, "When all seems to go wrong, you have to stay strong and work hard."

I miss Grandmother - a lot. :'(
Anyway, today, I went out with Mom and Amy to Singapore Expo. Mom enjoyed herself watching the performances and all - but Amy and I couldn't stand the crowd. We decided to buy food and just sit outside. Went to Coffeebeans and bought Mocha Ice Blended. :] Oh, and I talked to boyfie♥ on the phone.

Was on my way home when Yana called and asked to meet. Met her and Lisa at one of the neighbourhood blocks, waited for Khai, Haziq and Syam to finish praying. We bought food and went to Khai's home to eat dinner.

Khai's Mom: Which one is Yana?
Lisa: Which Yana? Got two Yanas here.
Khai's Mom: The older one.
Me: That'll be me. :D
Yana: You don't have to be proud. You're only a year older than me.

Not funneh, woman! XD
At least I'm a lot more taller than you! Haha!
Blahblahblah, Khai offered to send me home. And while we were walking, he tripped and fell - and his slippers snapped(?) LOL! The way he walked home was hilarious, really. XD

... I just received a text message from Kak Fathin.

"Lily Marlene Ween, tmr the show start at 4.30pm.
The hotstuff fathin and the not so hotstuff busu will be gg out at 2.30pm.
Do u want to come here to meet up with us?
& are u gg to overnight here?
Signing off - the hottest babe!"
HAHAHAHAHA! Gosh, how can I not love my cousin? :D Merry Chritstmas, everyone! Where's my snow? :]

goodbye baby,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

409.

2009-12-22T22:39:00.002+08:00

Today, Molly, Fafa, Eric, Alan and I went to Ash's house. The best thing about his house is that, there's 3 guitars, a grand piano and a hhuuggee guest room to play in - we pretty much played music the whole time we were there. This song we played was so awesome, by the way. ♥

"Love Drunk" by Boys Like Girls

Oh, and Ash's Mom made brownies. :D

We played basketball for a while and then, I went home, babysit the babies and later in the evening, went out with Surbhi. Met her at Dhoby Ghaut MRT and had late lunch at Pastamania. :] Talk, talk, talk. Gosh, I missed her so much, man.

And I miss my Mary Fairy too! ♥
Since I was at Dhoby Ghaut, I was thinking of visiting my private school - maybe meet Cindy or Emerald. Then go play pool at the arcade in the next building. But... I was too lazy to walk all the way there. Haha. In the end, Surbhi and I went shopping for Christmas stuff. :]

Later, Surbhi had to meet her 'darling' and I went to meet Ash, Eric, Ed, Janice and Molly. Oh, and I think Molly was high on something? She kept wanting to kiss people. Haha. XD I bought dinner and went home after that.

... You're always like that, smile for me like that - like there's nothing wrong. I'm so wrong, forgive me. :/

harder than you know,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

408.

2009-12-21T17:32:00.003+08:00

I'm not amused with your bullshits so stop it. What you said to me, it hurts too much to even think about it. I've had about enough. Pretend like you never knew me - that's what you're doing now, right? You don't care anymore, so why should I? Don't ever come looking for me again.

... Everything's going to be alright, isn't it? So why am I crying?

Going to play basketball now! With Ash, Ed, Ryan, JJ, Molly and Yana. Everyone's just too pissed with something to do anything else. I should go get pudding as well.

lies,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

407.

2009-12-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

This never gets old. ♥

"Monster" by Meg and Dia

... Honestly, I don't feel like myself since last night. I feel like I don't deserve you because somehow, you definitely deserve someone much better. Is it alright if I be jealous? Is it alright if I be selfish and want everything to myself? Is this what people call 'growing up'? Or maybe, is this just another act of childishness? I don't know anymore. :/ December. Ever so often, I don't know whether I should love it or hate it. Pfft, maybe I'm feeling like this because of the weather. Come on, it's freaking 25°C!

Anyway, this morning, Aunt, Kak Fathin and I went to East Coast. Did something there, had breakfast and I bought Mudpie from Coffeebeans for dessert. :] Then, we bought lunch, and went to Parkway Parade. Did nothing much, really. Reached home, watched Coming Soon which was kind-of scary for me. XD And then... What else? Oh, I watched Boys Before Flowers - and I still love the Japanese version more. Storyline is more faster. LOL!

I miss you, really. But... I don't know. :/

black wedding,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

406.

2009-12-17T22:09:00.004+08:00

Watch, watch, watch! Taemin knows how to play one of my favourites on piano. ♥

I want to watch this sitcom, really. Anyone knows where to find it with English subtitles? Because you see, I'm new to K-Fandom and my resources are still like bleahhh. XD

Anyway, today was a boring one, really. Nothing to watch on TV and nothing to do except babysitting the babies and reading "OUT". I was supposed to meet Nurul Fatin today but she couldn't make it. :/ Hey, woman! :D Next week, okay?! Quickly meet up before my money runs out - and we should go meet Reesha too. :]

- - -

TUESDAY, 15 DECEMBER 2009

I went out with Kak Fathin. Met her at Tampines, bought movie tickets and watched 2012. The movie is good, really. Especially the computer graphics. :] Oh, and the part when the Russian guy said, "Engine... Sssttaaarrtt" - hilarious. XD Then, we went to Bugis. Kak Fathin bought her pants and I bought 2 tops.
- - -

WEDNESDAY, 16 DECEMBER 2009

I met Aisyah in the bus and we went to Far East. ... Okay, I forgot what we did. Bought a belt, Aisyah bought new shoes and... I just walked around in search for nice clothes but I don't know. Many weren't to my liking and when I finally found something nice, it just had to cost me a bomb. -.-"

We went to Velocity and I bought a shirt and sandals from Cotton On. :D And I bought a necklace with a key pendant.

Aisyah: You'll get a key pendant necklace when you turn 21, you know. You should wait.
Me: ... Hhuuhh?? How long must I wait? I haven't even turn 17 yet. :/
Aisyah: OH! Yeah hor! Hahaha! I forgot!

That's about it, I guess. :] Have fun at your camp! XD More like, good luck ah. Haha!
- - -

Will be meeting Surbhi in the evening tomorrow and then I'll be staying over at Aunt's place - which means I'll be seeing Kak Fathin tomorrow. XD Let's sing "Lion Sleeps Tonight" before we go to bed, okay?! Haha! Inside joke, people.

Paramore's coming over next year and Kat asked me if I'm going. I want to go badly. But I can't stand crowds and I've got no cash to buy tickets now. :/ But Hayley is too awesome to miss, man. What to do? What to do?

diva,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

405.

2009-12-16T23:07:00.002+08:00

Before I forget,

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, ALIA!
HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY, LINA!
and HAPPY BELATED 20th BIRTHDAY, ONEW!
... Mom and Amy wants to sleep and I have to go offline now. -.-" Not funny. It's way too early, I tell you! Shall entertain myself with KBS World. Oyasumi, minna!

love drunk,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

404.

2009-12-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

Webcam-ing with Kak Fathin now. It's only 11:19PM and I'm already sleepy. Probably because I slept late last night - all because I was watching a very funny YouTube video. Haha. Seriously, Kak Fathin, Amy and I couldn't sleep after watching this, man. It's just too hilarious.

There's a lot more like: Marimar, Hey Baby. XD You know, ever since boyfie♥ flew off to Cambodia, I've been lacking daily humor. boyfie♥ jokes around a lot and... yeah. I miss that fella lorh!

This morning, I received a call from a very odd and long number on my cellphone screen.

Me: Hello?
boyfie♥: Oi, Liyana!
Me: Eh, ASYRAF!!!

Yup, I shrieked. XD Oh, oh, oh! My cellphone just vibrated and it's a text message from that odd and long number. ♥♥♥ But I can't reply. :'(

I hope you'll go online at your hotel and read this.
I'm eating well here - and I didn't eat noodles today. :D
So, don't worry.
I don't know if I can fetch you from the airport next Monday,
but I'll try, okay? Can't promise though. :/
And you're sick! You sounded so different just now!
Drink lots of water and take care of yourself, bacen. XD
Today's post seem to be all about boyfie♥ - because, you see, today was just an ordinary day. Babysit the babies, read "OUT". Yeah, those things. Tomorrow, movie date with Kak Fathin and maybe I'll do some shopping. :D

because of you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

403.

2009-12-13T22:30:00.003+08:00

I was surfing the net when I saw this: Ring Ding Dong (Remix)

Awesome or what? And I particularly love Key's

"Butterfly!
Neoreul mannan chut sungan
Nooni beonjjeok meori ssak
Belli ding dong oolleosseo

(Butterfly!
When I first saw you
You flashed in front of my eyes
My brain stopped and the bell rang ding dong)"
Awesome manly voice - but Jonghyun definitely sound better at the beginning of the song. :D

Nothing much happened today. I'm still at Aunt's house and relatives from Malaysia came by just now. When I had some free time, I read "OUT". Call me 'in love with a book', because I really am. Awesome, awesome book. Thanks for the recommendation, Mary! :3

It's my 2nd day without boyfie♥ around and I'm starting to wonder how he's doing over there. Instant noodles are nice, aren't they? XD

Anyway, you know how hard the Ring Ding Dong dance moves can be, but I'm sure I can manage this. XD

Teletubbies FTW! Haha!

easy to you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

402.

2009-12-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

It's 12:16AM and I'm not sleeping yet. Maybe because boyfie♥ isn't here to wish me goodnight? Tsk tsk. He called me at 3+AM, 4+AM and 5+AM yesterday morning. Talked to him and tried hard not to fall asleep - because you see, 10 days is super long and I just wanted to stay up and talk to him. No kidding. Hey, you. How's Cambodia? :] Are you eating well, skinny? XD

Anyway, today, a close relative got married. Bride and groom were super cute and funny. Then, I went home, pack my bag and left for my Aunt's place. Kenduri was alright, I guess. Nothing much happened - in fact, less chaos this time.

Right, I don't know what else to say but boyfie♥, you're missed. :D and Yaotome Hikaru never fail to rock my world. ♥ Goodnight, everyone.

a.mi.go,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

401.

2009-12-11T23:07:00.007+08:00

Sorry for not blogging yesterday. I was off mood last night because MSN Messenger was lagging my laptop big time and I don't even know why. It didn't even allowed me to sign in. -.-"

Anyway, yesterday, I went to East Coast Park with my family and the babies. Met Khai and his friends there. :D What else happened? Oh, I treated Mom and Dad to ice cream. Went to Borders, called Mary just to ask about a Japanese author's name and bought the book "OUT" written by Natsuo Kirino. Murder and crime, babyyy! ♥ The book is awesome so far and I'm pretty much addicted to it - which probably explains why I wasn't online this afternoon because I was busy reading till my neck hurts. :D I'm feeling bookworm-ish.

... Let's change subject, okay? boyfie♥'s flying over to Cambodia this morning at 6AM. ... =.=" Not funny, really. I'm not even laughing. Oh gosh. But there's nothing I can do, right? His school sent him there, and it's good for him because he'll learn some new things, have experience at the same time, and... okay, crap. I'm missing him already. Oi, bacennnn!! :D Take care hor!

One more thing, my horoscope for today says:

"These days, your vision is less reliable than your intuition. Don't trust your eyes."
I'm not kidding. I have been having weird dreams about my results and... It's just too scary. I don't even want to talk about it.

I'm listening to "Still With You" a cover done by SHINee's Onew - and it's not helping, seriously. I'm gonna miss that skinny, bacen, tulang, sotong fella. That you-know-who. :]

Ne, anata. Shiteru? Anata no koto suki da yo. Ganbatte ne?

stand by me,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

400.

2009-12-09T21:26:00.003+08:00

boyfie♥ is sick, and I'm worried sick for him too. What's worse, he's flying off to Cambodia this Saturday. ... :'( Hey you, go visit the doctor tomorrow, okay? You promised.

Today, I played with the babies - hide and seek, tag, wrestling. LOL. Watched Dream Team Season 2 and yeah, will probably go cycle at East Coast Park tomorrow and sleepover at my Aunt's place. I have a wedding and my late Grandmother's kenduri to attend this Saturday. ... And I still miss Grandmother. A few days ago, I had a dream about her. It wasn't a nightmare, really. More like... a happy one. :]

Happy 400th post - and Happy Birthday to SHINee's Minho. I didn't see him on KBS World today. :/

people like you,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

399.

2009-12-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

The 399th post. Firstly, let me flail over Nakajima Yuto, please? His drum skills in the latest Shounen Club episode is just oh-so-awesome. And I'm loving Takaki Yuya's rock songs, really. :D

Today... I slacked at home, tutored Amy, watched KBS World and became a fangirl when I saw SS501, 2PM and SHINee's Minho - and yes, I think I shall go to bed now. Goodnight, people. :]

ring ding dong,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

398.

2009-12-07T19:39:00.014+08:00

Nonsense, really. I can't stand it anymore. Tell me clearly what you want. Stop beating around the bushes already! You want me to move out of my own room? Honestly, just what is it? ... I'm as worried as you are, Dad. Your problems are my problems too. Because when you retire from your work, it's me who will be taking care of the family. I know that well enough. Gosh, Daddy. What's wrong, really?

After a week of renovation, I finally stepped into my kitchen toilet - seriously, the floor tile sucks. It feels like I'm stepping on dirt. -.-" Stupid pipes. Why leak after 11 years? Why not leak 12 years ago? Make the previous owner pay for the renovation, that way Dad wouldn't have to pay for all this. It's better that way - less complains.

Anyway, the babies were real funny today, I talked with boyfie♥ on the phone, played Mortal Kombat on my PSP, sang along the song "Snow Prince" with the Snow Prince Gasshoudan to make myself feel better. Totally adorable children. And oh, Shouji! I want to watch the movie Snow Prince. Take me to Japan, alright? ;] And then, yeah. Ash called.

Ash: Ween, I read your blog. Why so depressed~?
Me: :/ I don't know.
Ash: Let's go jamming today, okay? Alan's place. Molly, Eric, Yana and JJ coming along. You come too.

And I went. We played a lot of songs - The Veronicas, Senses Fail, Silverstein, Rise Against, Saosin, etc and etc. I can't remember. We fooled around too. Haha. Anyway, here's photos from last few weeks which I haven't posted - in no particular order, of course.

Baby Hakimi is going to grow up into one fine big brother. :D
Baby Sufiah is really lucky. :]

Amy, your 'peace' sign looks wrong, really. Haha.

Lorry, lorry, lorry. XD

My makcik. XD

Cute or whaaat? ♥

Makcik jual lauk. HAHAHA! Hilarious, really. :D

Alisha. :]

Amelia. :]

Green Tea and pudding. ♥

Brownieeee :D

Haha!

I'll explain this next. :D

His fringe was too long and I thought this was real cute. XD

Jonghyun. On. My. TV. Screen.
Am a happy kid when watching KBS World. ♥

Ice cream on white bread with Hershey's chocolate syrup.
I ate this while playing Tekken 5.
Shouji must be real jealous now. :D

I drove. Not. :D
I'll get my license soon. :]

Oh, did you know that I almost died of shock here. XD
Kak Fathin purposely turned on the engine or something and it made some weird noise.
I thought I was going to get knocked down. LOL.
Do that again and I'm gonna burp in your face! Haha!

Pretty, pretty sky. :]

Ice creammmmmm. ♥

The twins playing Amy's NDS. :D

Skyyyy. ♥

Okay, this video is very random but awesome because I love my family. XD
Zikry's the King of Pork.
Someone farted, if I remember correctly, it was Amelia.
And Zikry's, "biskot animal" doesn't make any sense. LOL!
Gosh, I love these people. :D
And I love that person whom I was texting in this video. ♥, yo.
Ruzaini texted me just now and omg, he's scary. XD Don't get me involved, you shorty. And because it's been long since I last typed in Japanese romaji, sekai ga ima nikumi atte iru nowa. Ne, daremo ga kitto gomen ne wo iwanai no. Junpaku enogu de kiesou kinou no kanashimi. Sad, really - but lovely. :] Have a good evening.

snow prince,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

397.

2009-12-06T21:27:00.004+08:00

boyfie♥ tried talking to me just now but I couldn't tell him how I really feel. I think I've gotten used to hiding my true feelings from people. Sometimes, I feel like I'm no longer human. I'm really falling apart tonight.

the name i love,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

396.

2009-12-06T20:21:00.002+08:00

Last night, I cried while asking myself questions from long ago which are still unanswered until today. I don't know why though. Maybe I'm still scared of what lies ahead of me. I have no clue what is going to happen next and... yes, I really am afraid of the future. Afraid of everything.

Mom have been telling me to get a part-time job quickly to help Dad with the bills. Mom and Dad wants me to grow up quickly, get a good-paying job when I'm older, so that I can help Dad with the household expenses. They told me to help Amy with her studies to prepare her for her major exams next year. ... You've heard all these before. Same old story. No, they're not giving me any pressure, believe me. I'm happy that they're all finally relying on me. It's just that... sometimes I wish time would slow down - so that I can properly plan and take my time to grow up.

It's the responsibilities I'm afraid of. The expectations of people and... yeah. Those things. It felt like I only turned 16 yesterday. And now, in a few weeks time, I'll be 17. How is it like being 17? Is it fun? Is it scary? Are there more responsibilities? Any worries? Gosh, I feel so old. :/ And I think I've asked this questions before last year. Haha.

When Hana asked me how I am this morning, I told her I was fine. ... I'm sorry I lied. I'm not alright, really. I'm not. I keep telling myself that things will be alright, that somehow, I'll find my way. That someday, things will fall in place and that I'll find my answers to my own questions. But...

"Sadness flies away on the wings of time." I'll be fine, right? Mm, I'll be alright. I'm awesome after all. Heh heh. (^_^)v Ruzaini is going to complain to me and say, "Your blog is boring." XD I think kecik is just jealous. Haha! ... :'( Bummer, really. I hate feeling so lousy like this.

30 minutes ago,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

395.

2009-12-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

A shout out to Ruzaini: Oi kecik! XD

Tonight's post is probably going to be short since I'm watching TV while blogging. Very difficult to concentrate, seriously. Anyway, last night, I had dinner with my family at Sakura. Today, I went out with my family to Tampines's Giant to buy some stuff. And then.... Oh gosh, I think I miss boyfie♥, a lot. He's at camp lorh. Pfft. Last night,

boyfie♥: Aiya, got cat lah.
Me: Huh? You're afraid of cats?
boyfie♥: Yeah, I run when I see cats.

LMAO. Cute or whaaat? XD Eh, tulang. XD I hope you're feeling better today. :] ... Right. Goodnight, everyone. :]

heartbeat,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.

394.

2009-12-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Mom, I'm loving KBS World. :] MioTV now rocks big time. Because you see, I woke up, played with the babies and switched the TV channel to KBS World and there they were - U-Kiss singing their latest song, Brown Eyed Girls, 2PM and SHINee performing later. And a few hours ago, they played "Ring Ding Dong" music video. Can never get sick of this. ♥♥♥ ... Uaaarrrggghh. ASDFGHJKL! I want a Japanese channel now. :D

Amy came back from her basketball camp today and she told me that it was fun and everything.

Me: Yeah, go shower. You stinks.
Amy: Oi~!
Me: What, smelly?
Amy: Hahaha. Walao... You ah. XD

Amy, I miss you lorh! :D

On the other hand, there's so many worries, so many problems one after another, so many... I don't know. :/ Complain, complain, complain. Nag, nag, nag. This is wrong, that is wrong, everything is wrong, I'm wrong. -.-" Menopause is really scary but there's no running away from it. Things will be alright in the end. Yup. I'll stay strong. (^_^)v

And FATHIN FATHIAH! It's Thursday, and I miss snuggling up to you. HAHA! See you on the 12th. Remember, don't eat eggs or your fart is going to stink the whole house like mad. XD I'm awesome for reminding you that, I know. =D Must say thank you hor - and buy me pudding! Haha!

heartbeat,
yamazaki yuri;
lily ween.